Rylan
Blowing smoke out my mouth, I checked the time for what felt like the thousandth time. It read 5:30 am. Fallon left a few hours ago but I guess it was safe to say, she wasn't come back tonight. Hell I couldn't even guarantee she was coming back at all.
Calling my brother. I listened to the phone ring.
"What nigga?" He said groggily.
"I think Fallon left for good." I said taking a pull from the blunt again.
"You called me at five something to tell me that?"
"Yeah nigga. I don't know what to do."
"It ain't shit to do. If she left then you gotta let her go bruh." He said and I swallowed hard realizing that's what it was coming to.
"I ain't ready to accept that."
"Look we leave for the Caribbean's tomorrow. She goes back to work tomorrow. I know you ain't gone sleep, but I need you focused. If she ain't been back home by the time we get back let her go. If she's there, let her know how you feeling man."He said. I smoked my blunt not knowing how I felt at this point.
"Iight. I'll see you tomorrow." I said hanging up.
I wasn't one to sleep anyways. Jail had made me an insomniac. So I was going to spend the night wondering if she was coming back when my mind needed to be on this trip. We were going to the Caribbean's to get another connect. Niggas always doubted our capabilities because our crew was small. But I was a lone sniper, Fabian was a business man, and Rico was the muscle. And he had a point. I couldn't think about Fallon while we were away. I never had this problem with Averi. When I went away I was focused on my money. But with Fallon it was different. I wanted to know she was safe. I wanted to know that she was good. And without knowing that this was going to be a long couple of days without her.
Fallon
The next day.
"Bitch this tea was so hot, I had to come up here on my damn lunch break." Jon said sitting on my desk.
"Fine but we have to make this quick my students will be back in a half an hour." I said, eating my salad.
"So you went to Sevyn's at one in the morning with just the clothes on your homeless back?" He asked.
"Is that what she said?"
"Not those words exactly. But something like that."
"Boy quit lying. But yeah I couldn't stay there with him Jon."
"And why the hell not? You broke up with the boy to stay in that house just to turn around and leave. Make it make sense." He said.
"He broke up with me. Because he wants me to sit up and nurse his feelings about Rylan. I can't make him feel comfortable about my friendship with Rylan. Hell cus I'm not even sure." I said.
"So then why the hell did you leave?"
"Because I wasn't ready for Rylan to ask me what I wanted from him. Why I chose to stay there with him. I'm not ready for that conversation."
"So what you moving out?" He asked. Covering to eyes I peaked through the cracks.
"No." I said as I began to fake cry.
"So what are you going to tell Rylan when you get home?"
"I'm going to put on my big girl draws and just say it." I said hyping myself even though me and Jon both knew I was lying.
"Tell me how you gone say it girl." He hyped back.
"I got dumped for living in this house. And I want to see where we can go."
"Bitch that is lame as hell. That's a grown man don't play with him. Tell that man you love him."
"I will." I continued to fake cry.
"You got this. Nine years Fallon. If he were going somewhere he'd be gone. Stop being scared."
"Fine." I said.
But in my head this was a terrible idea. I loved Rylan and for the first time since I was fifteen I'll have to tell him. Now more than ever I needed to figure out what I wanted to say.
Alright that's it folks. See you in approximately 7 days. Happy Thanksgiving 🦃
