Fallon
The next day.
I wake up looking around the room. Just noticing I went to sleep in Rylans bed. When I came home last night he wasn't here. I figured he stepped out to cool down but I wasn't expecting to wake up in an empty bed.
Laying in the bed his scent filled my nose.
I was wrong yesterday. I told him to do him and I knew if he did I would be devastated. I needed to apologize to him for being so irrational yesterday.
Walking in the room, he had the same clothes on from yesterday. Noticing me in the bed we made brief eye contact before he continued into the bathroom closing the door behind him. Frowning I threw the covers off of me, following behind him. Jumping on the bathroom counter I watched as the shower fogged up from his hot water. I could see his fully erect dick from my spot on the counter.
"Can I join you?" I joked smiling at him.
"Nah." He said not once looking at me. My smile dropped.
"Okay can we talk?" I asked.
"Right now?" He asked.
"I mean you came in and walked right past me."
"I wasn't expecting you to be in my bed." He said.
"Yeah I wasn't either that's what I wanted to talk about." I said.
"Can we talk after I shower?" He asked.
"Sure Rylan." I said leaving the bathroom.
Going downstairs I pulled out all the makings for a good breakfast. I needed him to understand and accept my apology. Clearly he was still mad at me, he didn't even wanna talk.
Going in the fridge I pulled out eggs, bacon, sausage, biscuits, orange juice. Then reaching in the pantry I grabbed grits.
"Alexa play Summer Walker's Still Over It album." I said as the system repeated it back to me.
Unloyal x Summer Walker played as I began cooking.
"I ain't taking your shit today. No. I ain't taking your tomorrow. No." I sang while scrambling my eggs. The bacon and sausage began to sizzle on the stove. As I put the grits on.
"Cus you just want play with my heart and. Oh. I seen you with the girl at the party." I continued to sing, as I nodded.
Coming into the kitchen, Rylan went into the fridge pulling out a smoothie about to walk past me, but I grabbed his hand.
"I'm cooking for you too." I said looking at him but he was avoiding eye contact.
"I'm not hungry."
"Rylan I'm sorry. I shouldn't have come at you like that. I didn't mean it." I said.
"Don't apologize please." He said sighing.
"Why? I was wrong! And I'm trying to make things right." I said looking at him but he refused to look at me. "Look at me." I said turning his face to me. He said nothing just looked at me with sad eyes.
"Wait this isn't even about me." I said putting the pieces together. He was avoiding eye contact not because he was still mad with me but because he felt guilty. I knew him like the back of my hand.
"If I can't trust you Rylan I will leave. There's no point in me being here if you are going to be like this." I said turning the stovetop off as the grits, eggs, and meat were done cooking.
Turning me to him, he placed me on the counter looking at me.
"I fucked up." He said.
But I stayed quiet.
"I had sex with Averi last night." He admitted and I felt my heart drop.
"That's where you're coming from? That's why you still had on those clothes?" I asked swallowing hard. He nodded.
"I haven't been one hundred with you Fallon. And I want to now because I want this, and I want you more than anything." He said. But I just looked at him. Tears beating at the back of my eyes but I refused to let them fall.
"Nows your chance." I said lowly.
"When you first got out the hospital, I moved Averi out and into another house. I would leave here and go there, and vice versa. At first it didn't matter because you had a man. But when y'all broke up and we established that we were going to try us, I broke up with Averi. When you saw us at lunch yesterday it was because she hit me up asking for closure. I invited Rico because I didn't want to be caught up with her knowing how I felt about you. Yet I still got caught up, and you weren't trying to hear anything I had to say." He explained and I was taking it all in.
"And then you came at me about this do me bullshit, and you can fuck who you want so I should too. Even though at the time I wasn't on that, and that pissed me off. So I went to Averi's just to fuck. I stayed because I wasn't ready to see the look you're giving me right now. But that was it Fallon on my parents, that was it for me and Averi." He said.
"I can't even be mad. I told you to go and you just listened." I said shrugging. Even though my heart was literally broken.
Lifting my chin he looked at me.
"You can feel however you want. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have been so rash." He said.
"It wasn't rash. You care for her, you bought her a house. I should have given you time to get over her before pursuing you." I said.
"There was nothing to get over. I cared for her yes. But it was about the sex for me. That's why I terminated the lease. That's why I'm here telling you what I did and I'm ready for whatever you got." He said.
"I have nothing."I said honestly. I was more hurt than angry but I feel like I'm the reason he went to begin with.
"Say anything Fallon." He said.
"I'm not mad." I said.
"You can be though."
"I know but I'm not."
"Fallon you have my heart, and I know that I hurt you. That's why I'm going to give you space but I just need to know you're going to come around when you're ready." He said.
Looking over him, I couldn't deny that I loved him. But I honestly didn't know what to do at the point.
"I will. Enjoy your breakfast though. I'm going to lay down." I said hopping off the counter.
Just a little something to read while y'all wait on thanksgiving! Working on your update for this weekend, still planning on giving y'all 8+ we will see how my time is set up.
Happy Thanksgiving 🦃💜
