Brutal (Sour Hour Series #5)

Chapter 27

Chapter 27

The flashes of lights and the clicks of the cameras give me a relaxing feeling. As I went onto the stage, I walked slowly and smiled at the audience.

I gently ramped down on the ground while holding the hem of my dress, and after ramping, I slowly walked down the stairs, and my manager approached me quickly.

"Congratulations on your successful fashion show, Verlyian!" My manager congratulated me.

"Thank you so much! I wouldn't be here if you're not here!"

My manager helped me with this new journey of mine. She's the one who found me walking in the street, then she told me that I have the potential of being a model. At first, I didn't accept her offer, but I accepted it after a few minutes.

I received many flowers and upon receiving them, I suddenly looked at the mirror and stared at my reflection.

I deserved to be this happy, I deserved this achievement… after all of what happened to me.

When I remember back to what happened to me four years ago, I can honestly say that it was the most difficult and traumatic time of my life. I went through a lot of suffering and my downfall four years ago.

But then, I was the only one who realized how much I had suffered. Despite the fact that four years have passed, I haven't told my sister what truly happened to me, despite the fact that she has a lot of questions.

Mas gugustuhin kong… sumama ang tingin nila sa'kin. I want them to think that I really cheat.

Iyon ang naisip ko noong mga taong iyon. Mas'yado akong natakot… takot na baka husgahan nila ang pagkatao ko. Nawalan ako ng tiwala sa lahat ng tao sa paligid ko, kahit pa sa mga kapatid ko at si Kyler.

Those suffering bring a huge impact to my soul.

Remembering back then when I attempt many times to took suicide. Ilang beses na hindi natutuloy dahil… maraming sumasagabal, katulad ng ginawa noon ni Jainx.

I hurt myself many times, and I started to question my worth. And that time… I was really at my lowest.

And when I found out that I'm pregnant, Jainx was immediately on my mind. Will he be able to accept this? If he thinks that I cheated on him… he wouldn't know about what really happened to me.

And I think before that… telling him I cheated was the best solution to it, but no.

I have become a selfish woman, I know. I know that he suffered a lot of pain, thinking that I cheated on him. Alam kong iniisip niya kung… bakit ko iyon nagawa… kung nagkulang ba siya sa'kin.

I'm immature at that time. I thought, I have matured already, but lying to Jainx and to my sisters… I don't think that's part of maturing.

Ayoko lang na malaman nila ang nangyari sa'kin. Natatakot ako. Ayokong mawala sa lahat… at mas gugustuhin kong ganoon na lang ang isipin nila sa'kin.

At ngayon, alam kong huli na para sa aming dalawa. Pero alam kong hindi pa huli para makamit ko ang hustisya na nararapat sa'kin.

Ever since that happened to me, I didn't see my dad and those two demons with him anymore.

"Did you really cheated, Verlyian?" si Calleigh isang gabi nang malaman niyang hiwalay na kami ni Jainx.

Hindi ako sumagot at nanatili lang na nakatitig sa kawalan. Nakatayo silang dalawa sa harapan ko habang sabay sabay akong binibitawan ng mga tanong.

"Hindi ako naniniwala! Hindi mo naman magagawa 'yon! At… buntis ka pa?" si Cait.

Sabay sabay na nalaglag ang luha ko. Kung alam kaya nila ang pinagdaanan ko… maiintindihan kaya nila ako sa ginawa kong iyon?