Brutal (Sour Hour Series #5)

Chapter 17

Chapter 17

Since I've known him, I've always felt comfortable and secure when I'm with him. He was the only one who made me feel so secure. It's enough for his embrace and touch to put my heart at ease.

But I'm aware that I shouldn't be relying on him. I should be able to stand on my own and feel comfortable because that is how it should be.

I'm not sure how I'm going to react as I stare at him in the police station while he's furious. I want to calm him down, but I know I won't be able to.

Tuluyan nang nakulong si Hasher kaya kasalukuyan kaming nandito sa police station para tanungin ako ng mga pulis, ilang oras lang ang nakalipas pagkatapos ng nangyaring iyon.

"Make sure he will rot in jail," I heard Jainx's told the police.

Marami pa akong nalaman tungkol kay Hasher, na matagal na itong nalulong sa droga kaya mas lalo siyang nawala sa kanyang sarili. Nalaman ko rin na, matagal nang magkaaway sila Hasher at Jainx.

Lumapit sa'kin si Jainx, and when he came near me, he embraced me again very tightly.

"I'm sorry that this happened to you…" he gently whispered.

I just sighed heavily, walang salitang namutawi sa labi ko. Mas'yado pa akong nag aadjust sa mga nangyari kanina, na pakiramdam ko, hanggang ngayon, may humahawak pa rin sa katawan ko.

And the fact that it doesn't happen to me once because it already happened a couple times from the other person. I just don't have the confidence to open it to my family, because I know they'll just laugh at me and say that… I'm just kidding around, just like they're always saying whenever I'm showing them the pain I am feeling.

My parents were unconcerned when my Tito harassed me, despite the fact that I had already informed them. They listen when I open things, but they don't care about my feelings.

I really don't know why this is happening in my life. Deserve ko ba ang lahat ng ito? May kapalit ba ang lahat ng pagdurusa kong nararamdaman?

Earlier, when Hasher almost did that to me… wala ibang pumasok sa isip ko kundi ang pangalan ni Jainx. Inside of my mind, while my eyes were closed tightly, I was silently shouting for Jainx's name.

"I won't let that happen to you again. I won't ever let another person lay their hands on you again." he said with authority.

I smiled. "Thank you, Jainx… kasi dumating ka."

"Pananatilihin kitang ligtas sa abot ng makakaya ko,"

Ilang araw ang nakalipas matapos mangyari iyon. Nabalitaan nila Calleigh ang nangyari kaya galit na galit sila ngayong bumisita sa condo ko.

"See! Masama talaga ang kutob ko sa lalaking 'yan! Kung hindi… lang dahil kay Mama! Hindi naman 'to mangyayari sa'yo, e!" si Calleigh.

"Kung sino pa ang nanay, siya pa mismo ang nagdala ng kapahamakan sa anak niya." bakas ang galit sa boses ni Cait.

"Jainx was really your life saver, 'no? Kung hindi siya dumating, baka kung ano nang nangyari sa'yo."

She's definitely right. Sometimes, I can imagine if… what if Jainx didn't come on that day? What could possibly happen to me then?

Gabi gabi akong tinatawagan ni Jainx para masiguradong ligtas ako. Kada umaga naman, pagkagising ko, magugulat na lang ako kapag nakikita kong may pagkain na sa labas.

"Seriously, Jainx, you don't have to do this. Nakakahiya naman sa'yo. You know, I can also cook naman." sabi ko sa kanya isang araw.

He sighed. Binigyan niya pa ako ng isang box ng donuts, samantalang kakakain ko lang ng kanin kanina. It seems like, he's spoiling me already.