Brutal (Sour Hour Series #5)

Chapter 22

Chapter 22

This is, without a doubt, the happiest day of my life. I was surprised to see Jainx express his true feelings to me, which I hadn't expected in the first place.

In my eyes, the moon and stars become more visible. As I take in the cool breeze from the trees around us, it shines on my eyes.

"I can't bear to see you… hurting because of me. To see you thinking that you don't have a chance on me… but, Verlyian… you don't know how my heart skips a beat every time I see you." he explained.

Biglang namula na parang kamatis ang pisngi ko. Wow! Grabe 'yon! Hindi ko ineexpect na mangyayari ito. Parang gusto ko na lang tumalon sa tuwa.

"I tried stopping myself from falling for you, because I'm thinking that you don't deserve a man like me. But I realized that… even if we have a lot of circumstances in life, we deserve to be happy in our lives." he continued.

Ngumiti lang ako sa kanya. He's now holding my hands as we both stared at the stars from above.

"And that happiness… I can see it in your eyes…"

Parang may kung ano na namang humawak sa puso ko. I then bit my lower lip. Mas'yado akong nagulat sa mga sinabi niya sa'kin na hindi na ako makasagot sa kanya.

"Whenever I see you hurting because of me, I'm also hurting. That's why… I really planned to confess this to you here in your retreat."

I sighed. "Talaga ba? Kung wala bang open forum na naganap, masasabi mo kaya 'yan sa'kin?"

"Oo. Gagawa ako ng daan para masabi ang lahat ng nararamdaman ko."

"Aren't you really thinking na… baka ginagamit lang talaga kita dahil may pera ka?" I asked.

Umiling agad siya. "No. Hindi mo pa nasasabi sa'kin ang nararamdaman mo, malaki na ang tiwala ko sa'yo."

I smiled a little bit. Ito ang gusto ko kay Jainx. He's trusting me a lot. Kahit na malaki ang posibilidad na maaaring ginagamit ko siya, pero pinagkatiwalaan niya ako. He's always like this even before.

"When did you realize that you really like me?"

He sighed. "The night you kissed me…"

Yumuko agad ako at pinaglaruan ang daliri sa legs ko. Bigla na naman akong nakaramdam ng hiya. Naaalala ko na naman ang ginawa ko noon.

"I'm really sorry for doing that to you! Dahil sa kalasingan ko, kaya ayon… at sinusubukan ko rin kung talaga bang hindi mo ako magugustuhan."

"You just awakened something on my body that night when you kissed me. Before that, I keep denying to myself that I like you. Maybe… this is just confusion. But when you kissed me on the bar, that's when I realized that…" he said.

"That you really like me, right? Na natatakot kang umamin sa'kin dahil alam mong… marami pang problemang dapat harapin?"

He nodded. "Also, because I want you to focus on your life first."

"Kahit naman na kasama kita… nakakapag focus pa rin ako sa mga bagay bagay."

"I want you to finish your study first," he said.

Tumango ako kahit na medyo disappointed sa naging desisyon niya. Naiintindihan ko naman siya. He's really a mature man by his age. At ganito pala ang pakiramdam na magkagusto sa isang lalaking mas matanda sa'yo?

I never regret liking and loving him, and I never regret not stopping my feelings on him.

"Gusto ko lang malaman mo na nagustuhan kita, hindi dahil sa nagustuhan mo ako, kundi dahil… I saw something on your eyes that I really love about."