Brutal (Sour Hour Series #5)

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

Remembering what Jainx all did to me before and even now, even the fact what I did to him before, he still shows how cared he is for me. He asks me first if I'm okay, even if he already knew what I did to him.

He still treats me with kindness and care. He only did one thing for me: he was nice to me. He was not angry. He didn't try to get away from me. After all, he still cared about me.

Staring at the night sky, many realizations have come to my mind.

I'm the reason why many people are mad at him because of those pictures. He got kicked out of school because of me.

On Jainx, everything is now a mess. And I'm the reason why his life is becoming increasingly chaotic right now.

This would not have happened to Jainx if I had not obeyed my mother's orders.

I did it regardless of how often I told myself that I didn't want to be bound by them. The truth is that I'm a really impulsive woman. I hadn't considered what may happen to Jainx if I did so. And now, regret is slowly but steadily eating away at my body.

I'm entitled to be regretful. He didn't do anything to me, after all. Despite the fact that he previously knew that I'm the mastermind, it seemed that nothing had changed. He was still concerned about me.

Talking about the infatuation. I really don't know what to think. Dashuel's words really caught me off guard. If what he told me is right… then I don't know what to do.

As I glanced at the vehicles in front of me, I sighed several times. I'm sitting on the balcony, having a glass of wine in our home.

Since the issue about Jainx started, he also deactivated all of his accounts, kaya nawalan na ako ng connection sa kanya. When I'm trying to contact his number, cannot be reach iyon. Probably, he already changed his number.

"I'm such a mess, Dashuel!" inis na sambit ko.

He's here in our house. Siya lang ang tanging kaibigan na mahihingan ko ng tulong. He's really straight forward friend, that's why… I really need his advice everyday. At isa pa… siya lang naman ang tunay kong kaibigan.

"Normal lang namang pagsisihan mo ang nangyari. Kasalanan mo din naman 'yan." he tell it to me directly.

"Wow! Oo na, kasalanan ko na nga…"

"All you have to do right now is to face your consequences and to accept your mistake. Ipakita mo sa kanya na talagang pinagsisisihan mo na ang mga nangyari." he said.

I sighed. "At paano?"

"Bumawi ka sa kanya. I know, one sorry is not enough. At wala na ring magagawa ang sorry mo because the damage has been done."

"Anong gagawin ko?"

"You need to grow up. Ipakita mo sa kanya na hindi mo na ulit iyon gagawin. Don't be enslaved by your mom again. That's all." sabi niya.

Bumuntonghininga ako at napatingin lang sa kawalan. Sa totoo lang, hindi ko talaga alam.

"Realizing things is part of growing up. Regretting is also part of it. That's why, when we make a mistake, instead of repeating it again… why don't we learn from it instead?" seryosong sabi ni Dashuel.

"May point ka,"

He smirked. "Ako lang 'to,"

"Hindi ako nagkamali na ikaw ang hiningan ko ng advice,"

"Of course. I'm your real friend, Verlyian. Kaya, hindi kita tinotolerate sa mga maling gawain mo. Sa halip, tinutulungan kitang mapunta sa tamang landas." he smiled.