Big Shepherd, Little Shepherd

IV

AMELIA'S POV

Around 11 the front door slammed shut and I could hear the hushed yelling of Derek and Meredith. Ahh lovely. The nanny had put the kids to sleep but that doesn't mean they'll sleep during this yelling match.

- Meredith : She's sleeping in our house with our children. She's trouble Derek

- Derek : She's my sister. She needs help

- Meredith : You heard her. She doesn't want help. She wants to die, maybe you should let her

- Derek : Meredith-

- Amelia : You didn't just say that. That's my sister Meredith. She deserves a fair chance and at the minute it's not fair. She's vulnerable and scared and your not helping

- Derek : Amelia-

- Meredith : No. Keep it coming. Your sister is a screw up and you know it. I don't want her in my house

I heard a snort and turned around. So did Derek. Y/n was stood in the door way without one of my hoodies on leaving her in a t-shirt and leggings. The scars on her arms were visible but I don't think she knows. She doesn't need to feel even more uncomfortable right now.

- y/n : I'm going to get changed. I'm going home. I'm sorry Derek but your wife doesn't want me here and I don't want to be here

- Derek : You can't leave. You'll get yourself killed y/n/n

- y/n : I'm already dead Derek. I was pretty much dead when I started to hurt myself

- Amelia : Your not leaving. We're going to get a hotel for the night or we can stay with one of the girls from work. Come on

I hope Meredith doesn't hold this grudge against her for a long time. She's her sister in law for gods sake and y/n hasn't technically done anything against Meredith.

YOUR POV

I just want to go home. There's a good stash of weed in a hole in the wall there and-

- Amelia : Arizona said we can stay there. She's got a spare room

- y/n : Can I just go home?

- Amelia : This is your home now y/n. Your going to be safe, clean and stable here

- y/n : Amy please. Let me go

- Amelia : Fuck off, no. Arizona is waiting up for us. Let's go

She's resilient, I'll give her that. Doesn't mean I want to be here though. The whole drive she was singing to fucking Taylor Swift. She knows that's one of my soft spots. We turned up to a pretty good looking house. She's definitely a doctor on a good income.

- Arizona : Hey b- Amelia, y/n. Come in

- Amelia : Y/n this is Arizona

- y/n : No, really? I thought it was Rumpelstiltskin

- Amelia : She's going through withdrawal and is tired. She's cranky

- y/n : Make me sound like a child, why don't you?

- Arizona : Oh wow, okay. Your room is upstairs, first room to the right. Are you staying in mine?

- Amelia : I can't leave y/n alone

- y/n : You can spend the night with your secret girlfriend. I won't tell.

- Amelia : How-

- y/n : Arizona almost slipped up, calling you babe as we walked in. She also seems excited to have you over suggesting it doesn't happen very often and she's holding your hand

They both give me a look. They weren't exactly being subtle. Amelia just faced into Arizona shoulder and I can tell she's laughing. I can't help being observant.

- y/n : Can I go to bed?

- Arizona : Yeah. Just keep the door open

- Amelia : Zona-

- Arizona : She's got to know we trust her. Do you want me to bring you a drink or some food upstairs?

- y/n : If you could bring me a lighter and weed it would be greatly appreciated

- Arizona : Tea. Got it. I'll be up in a second

Smart. Didn't deny what I asked for, just acted like I said something else. Amelia stayed downstairs with Arizona but looked at me apprehensively as I went upstairs. I won't lie to you, this mattress is fucking great.

- Arizona : You look relaxed

- y/n : As relaxed as an addict can be

- Arizona : You know your sister is worried about you. She spent the whole time she's been in Seattle talking about how she wishes you were here

- y/n : She tries really hard to try and make sure I don't end up like her. It didn't work

- Arizona : You use drugs as a coping mechanism?

- y/n : Yep

She just sat with me for a while before Amelia joined us. She sat on the end of the bed, cross legged with Arizona's head in her lap. It's nice to see my sister happy.

- Amelia : Are you okay if we go to bed? I'm trusting you

- y/n : Yessir

- Amelia : Goodnight y/n/n

- y/n : Night Amy

I just need to make it a few weeks then I can go back to LA. Back to my normal life. I can see Molly when I want and I can do whatever drugs I want. Maybe this time I'll be able to do it to myself without being stopped.

- Amelia : Hey wake up. You were having a nightmare

- y/n : I'm sorry

- Amelia : Want me to stay in here with you?

- y/n : It's fine. Arizona might be upset when she wakes up without you

- Amelia : She woke me up y/n. She knows ai'm in here. Lay down, I'm staying in here

Amelia fell asleep before me. No surprises when 8 couldn't get back to sleep. The view from the window in room I was in though is immaculate. What the fuck are you doing y/n? Your not supposed to like it here.

Authors Notes
I need you guys to choose
between Maya and Carina
as a love interest. Have a
drink and snack please x