Big Shepherd, Little Shepherd

II

AMELIA'S POV

Yeah I'm not planning on going back to LA. I don't want to get married or have a family yet but James does and it's kind of nice being around my brother again. The family thing just isn't my flavour though.

- Derek : Addison is calling you and my hands are all covered in chicken juice so I can't get it

- Amelia : Hey Addie. What's up?

- Addison : Your sister has overdosed, it isn't looking good. She's getting her stomach pumped. Can you get to St. Ambrose in the next 3 days?

- Amelia: Erm yeah. I'll be there in 2. Look after my y/n

- Addison : I always will. Be safe

- Derek : What did she need? Has James asked about you again?

- Amelia : I need to go back to LA. Y/n is having her stomach pumped, she over dosed

- Derek : Again? Amelia I need to come

- Amelia: You have kids. You can't just drop things for her. I'll go

So here I am on a 3 hour flight to LA to see my little sister who really doesn't want to be here so does drugs to cope with life. I can't blame her, I was in her position like 5 years ago but I got help from the people that love me. Apparently Charlotte is waiting for me at the gate.

- Charlotte : Hey. It's good to see you. Obviously not under the circumstances but yeah

- Amelia : How is she? Is it worse then last time?

- Charlotte : Ish. Yes and no. She's still unconscious. Her arms are worse then Addison has ever seen them.

- Amelia : I'm just scared I'm going to loose my sister. I lost my fiancé to drugs and my best friend to suicide. I can't loose my sister to suicide by drugs

- Charlotte : You know me, Addison, Cooper and Jake won't let her give up.

- Amelia : I think I need to take her back to Seattle with me. She's just killing herself here.

Charlotte just nods along. No one wants to accept the fact my sister is a suicidal drug addict who needs help. I can't really remember a time she wasn't doing drugs or not hurting herself. There was a time we used to smoke weed together. It's those times that make me question whether I made her do drugs.

- Charlotte : Hey. Are you okay? We're here

- Amelia : I zoned out. Sorry

- Charlotte : Are you ready to-

- Cooper : Amelia you need to get upstairs. Y/n coded last night.We got her back but she's unstable

- Charlotte : What? Why wasn't I told? Is that the best idea right now Amelia? For you to see your sister like that?

- Amelia : She doesn't need to be anymore alone then she already is. I know what she's going through. I was sort of in her position a few years ago, remember?

I was off before Charlotte could even stop me after being directed to her room I stood outside for a bit. I need to calm down before I go in there. As I open the door Addison steps out and towards me.

- Addison : She doesn't want to see anyone. She just kicked me out

- Amelia : Can I go it?

- Addison : Yeah, just ignore everything she says about not wanting you there. She's upset.

- Amelia : Got it.

She steps aside and let's me into the room. Y/n looks so small on the bed. I think that's a universal thing, when someone's in hospital they look small. She's normally taller then me but this makes her look different. She's zoned out, staring at the wall in front of her. God I remember this. This pain.

- y/n : You look like shit.

- Amelia : You wouldn't look great either when your little sister has tried to kill herself

- y/n : Maybe if you all stopped trying to stop me then you wouldn't look like shit. If you stopped caring then I could do it and you wouldn't need to worry

- Amelia : But then I'd be the youngest and Derek would have to pick a new favourite sister

- y/n : Does he know?

- Amelia : He knows. Doesn't know you coded but knows what happened.

She refuses to meet my eyes and just looks down at her hands. It's not until I sit down next to her that she looks at me.

- Amelia : There's my baby sister.

- y/n : I'm sorry. I didn't mean for it to get this bad

- Amelia : I was thinking. Maybe you could come back to Seattle with me. You have a niece and nephew that would love to meet Auntie y/n.

- y/n : Zola and Derek right?

- Amelia : Well everyone calls little Derek, Bailey because it saves confusion. Zola keeps asking when she'll meet you though

- y/n : I'm too messed up for those kids. They'll hate me like Kathleen and Nancy hate me-

- Amelia : I don't think you understand y/n/n. You don't have a choice. I'm fucking tired of seeing you kill yourself. I just want my baby sister back. The innocent y/n who sat and read books to her stuffed animals

Y/n doesn't retaliate and just looks down to her hands again. I can't leave her here, she's going to have to come home with me. We can get her help and I can be her sponsor. Addison and Charlotte sorted out her transfer and now it was just a case of getting her back to Seattle. She was silent the whole helicopter ride and didn't speak when she was pulled out but instead climbed off the bed and started to walk. She was kind of wobbly but I know she doesn't want Derek to see her in the bed.

- y/n : Where's Derek?

- Meredith : Hey, Amelia. You disappeared for a few days and Derek wouldn't tell me where you went.

- Amelia : Meredith, this is y/n. Mine and Derek's younger sister

- Meredith : Oh the other drug addict

- y/n : Great. Everyone knows. I also tried to kill myself multiple times if that helps you judge me.

Wow Meredith. Nice one. Doesn't help that y/n is going through withdrawals right about now. She's going to be craving drugs and I can't leave her alone in a hospital like this. There are way too many sharp objects and drugs around for her to be alone.

Authors Notes
Soo, how are you guys
feeling about this story so
far. It's going to mention
topics that could trigger people
but I think they're all in the
description before you actually
read this book. Have a drink
and snack please x