YOUR POV
Carina's been living with us for the past two weeks. In those two weeks I haven't physically seen Caitlyn. I told her Carina was staying with me so she could bind with Isabella. That set Caitlyn off and she refuses to come over. Me being a busy surgeon, can't find much time to go see her. I am going over today though.
- Caitlyn : Hi
- y/n : Hi. I thought I'd come see you
- Caitlyn : How sweet of you. I was just cooking dinner. There's enough if you want some
- y/n : I had dinner at home, sorry. Carina's teaching Bells how to cook
- Caitlyn : How's that going for you?
- y/n : I haven't had food poisoning yet so it's going okay. I have almost had a toe chopped off when Bells dropped a knife. That was a fun day
Well this is awkward.
- y/n : Bells keeps asking if she can be home-schooled and when I tell her no because I don't have the time she says 'But Caitlyn's a teacher. Why can't she teach me?' I had to explain that you teach college students and that she probably wouldn't understand the syllabus
- Caitlyn : She probably wouldn't understand all of it but she's bright. She's be able to do it
- y/n : That's besides the point. She's in elementary school, you teach college kids
- Caitlyn : She's sweet
- y/n : Yeah
I can't exactly just say 'Hey Caitlyn. You know the ex that's living with me? Well I still love her. Yolo I guess'. It wouldn't be right.
- Caitlyn : I feel like I haven't seen you in the past two weeks
- y/n : I've been going to a lot of meetings
- Caitlyn : Work meetings?
- y/n : And my other ones. I have the potential to be promoted to co-head of neuro so Amy can spend more time with her family
- Caitlyn : That's good. You've been going to your other meetings more. Why's that?
- y/n : Yeah well shit happened while I was in New York. When we got back I got some weed and I almost smoked it. Carina caught me before I did. That's why she's been staying with me
- Caitlyn : Is that the only reason?
No. It's not the only reason.
- y/n : Yeah
- Caitlyn : Y/n
- y/n : Mhm
- Caitlyn : I'm about to be brutally honest with you and I need you to tell me you won't go off the rails when I do.
- y/n : Mhm
- Caitlyn : Say it
- y/n : I won't go off the rails
- Caitlyn: Okag. Erm I can't do this anymore. Us. You say you love me and you see a future with me but then Carina turns up and you start distancing yourself. Does it not seem weird to you that you let you ex move in but we couldn't move in together because it might 'disrupt Isabella's routine'?
- y/n : Mhm
- Caitlyn : Y/n
- y/n : Yeah?
- Caitlyn : Are you still in love with Carina?
Yes. I am.
- y/n : I'm not sure
- Caitlyn : Do you want to be with Carina?
- y/n : I'm not sure
- Caitlyn : I can't be a second choice y/n. If you make your choice and it's me, then I'll be here.
Is this a break up? It sounds like a break up. I need to choose. Carina, might hurt me again but is good with Bells and I love her. Caitlyn, left when I told her about my drug problems initially but is also good with Bells and I love her. I love two women but I think one of them is as a friend.
- y/n : I'm home
- Isabella : Momm
- Amelia : Hi. The kids were bored so we came over to use the paddling pool
- y/n : Okay. Hey kids
- Ryan : Auntie Y/nn. Come here
- y/n : Bells was a kid once. I'm not falling for that one. Where's Carina?
- Amelia : Getting changed so she can join the kids in the pool. Bells asked her to
- Carina : Hello bella
- y/n : Hey
Watching Carina mess around with the kids is funny. AJ and Eli have the water guns and are trying to get Bells but she's hiding behind Carina who's being attacked by Ryan who's splashing water from the pool at her. It's good to see the boys for once, they aren't out or on the xbox.
- Amelia : Carina said you were at Caitlyn's. How is she?
- y/n : Yeah. I don't know, not great? We broke up
- Amelia : Why?
- y/n : I think I'm still in love with Carina
- Amelia : Finally. Welcome to the land of reality where we are all aware of our feelings
- y/n : Fuck you
- Amelia : So Carina doesn't know you're available?
- y/n : Nope
I'll keep it that way for a few weeks. I can't go from one girl to another.
- Isabella : MOM! COME PLAY
- Eli : COME ON
- Amelia : Go. I'm not stopping you
- y/n : Let me get cha- You little- I'm going to get you
- Carina : RUN BELLA
This is fun. It's hot and we're having a water fight. I kind of want Amy to get involved but I don't know if she'll kill me if I shoot the water at her.
- y/n : Hey Amy
- Amelia : Yea- You bitch
- y/n : Language
- Amelia : Get back here. Pass me the water gun Ryan. Thank you.
- y/n : Carinaaa. Save me
- Carina : Run bella. Run
I just need to get to Carina and then I can hide behind her. Come on. OW. THAT HURT.
- Carina : Are you okay?
- y/n : Yep. Mhm. Just slipped on the grass, the mud under it got a bit slippy
- Amelia : Got you
- y/n : Do the back of my legs
- Eli : It looks like you shat yourself
- AJ : No swearing. Ryan and Isabella are around
- Carina : That's going to leave a bruise
Oh I know. It's going to be a big bruise that'll hurt like a bitch.
Authors Notes
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