Big Shepherd, Little Shepherd

XXXIV

LIZZIE'S POV

Y/n has been on the phone a while. Carina keeps looking over to the doorway but Eli and AJ keep trying to talk to her, taking her attention away from it.

- Amelia : I'm going to go check on y/n

- Lizzie : It's fine, I'll go. You stay here

- Amelia : Mhm. You have 5 minutes

Y/n isn't even on the phone anymore. She's just sat with her head in her hands.

- Lizzie : When is Addie expecting you?

- y/n : Whenever I want. I might leave soon

- Lizzie : Like without letting everyone know

- y/n : No, I'll let them know. I just- I'm struggling and it's getting exhausting and I need to get away before I go crazy

- Lizzie : Come on then, let's go say goodbye

- y/n : Yep

Y/n looks fine and when she first got here she sounded okay but the more I'm spending time with her, the more exhausted she looks.

- y/n : Hey guys I think I'm going to head out

- Andrew : What do you mean?

- y/n : I need to get to LA as soon as I can. I need Addison and Charlotte

- AJ : No. Don't go Auntie y/n/n

- y/n : I've got to AJ but I'll come back. I promise I'll come back

- Eli : I don't want you to go

- y/n : Come here. Gimme a hug before I go. I'll send you a postcard. Bye bye Bells.

- Amelia : I'll take you back to the hotel to pack

Amelia is calling a taxi so Carina and Andrew have the car while I hug y/n. I probably won't see her for a while.

- Amelia : Taxi should be 5 minutes

- Lizzie : I'm going to miss you y/n/n

- y/n : I'll be back as soon as I can

- Amelia : Don't rush. Nothings going to happen without you here. We know you'll be home as soon as you can and then we'll come see you again Liz. Maybe Arizona will come next time

- y/n : Yeah if I don't piss her off again

Their taxi pulls up and y/n waves as they drive off. It won't be long till I see her again. Hopefully her relationship is sorted out by then.

YOUR POV

Carina really doesn't want to get married. Does this change things between us? Does this mean we'll break up? Am I going to have to go on dates again? I haven't done that if I wasn't high or already friends with the person. Fuck.

- Amelia : What's wrong? I can see the cogs turning in your head

- y/n : What'll happen with me and Carina if she doesn't want to get married?

- Amelia : You either stay together and don't get married, you wait for her to come round although she might not or you move on separately

- y/n : But I thought she was the one. I thought I'd spend my life with her

- Amelia : Stop worrying. We can talk about it when you get home. Be good for Addie and Charlotte

- y/n : Help me pack my stuff again?

- Amelia : Of course. You'll end up with size 5-6 kids underwear otherwise. You know how the boys are. And how you are

Here Amelia is, packing her sister things up before letting her leave. Honestly I feel like we should learn from my mistakes and not send me away. Well I've chosen to go this time but I really don't want to leave my sister. Oh shit were at the airport. When did I get in the car? I am SO in my own head.

- Amelia : You know where I am if you need me. I'll miss you y/n/n

- y/n : I'll be back soon, I promise

- Amelia : No rushing. Love you

- y/n : Love you too Ames

And I'm boarding. Fuck. Why did I let myself get to this point again? To the point where I have to get away from my normal life to get help.

My girl <3

My girl <3
I'm going to miss you
bella. I promise to come
visit if I get time off xx

Y/n
I'm sorry you have to
deal with this Car,  I
understand if you move
on while I'm away x

My girl <3
I'm not going anywhere.
I love you. Text me when
you land xx

Y/n
I love you too x

Fuck. I would change my plans a thousand times over for this woman.

Authors Notes
Sorry it took ages to
write. Have a drink and
snack please