Big Shepherd, Little Shepherd

XLIII

YOUR POV

That was the worse fucking day ever. It was busy nonstop, Isabella and me had an argument over the fact I couldn't pick her up from school so now she's having a tantrum and I'm just ready to sleep.

- y/n : Hello?

- Ryan : Auntie Y/nnnn

- y/n : Hello munchkin. Where's Bells?

- Ryan : In the garden talking to mama

- y/n : Thank you Ryan. Let's go see them

- Ryan : Mama told me to go inside because Isabella was being mean

- y/n : Oh okay. You play your toys. We'll be inside in a minute

Great. A stroppy 9 year old and a banging headache. What else could a person want in life?

- y/n : Hey Bells. You ready to go home

- Isabella : Go away

- Arizona : I've tried. It's up to you now

- y/n : Thank you for looking after her

- Arizona : No problem

- y/n : Bells we've got to go home. I've got to make dinner and you've got school again tomorrow

- Isabella : GO AWAY

- y/n : Don't yell at me Bells. We talk about our feelings, don't we? Talk to me

- Isabella : You said you'd pick me up today and then you didn't

- y/n : And that makes you upset?

- Isabella : Yeah

- y/n : It was a busy day at work today Bells. I had back to back surgeries all day. I did plan to come get you, I promise

I know it's upset Isabella by working all day but I've got to work to earn money for us. We're only on my income and her college fund isn't growing if I'm not working.

- Isabella : Mom, can we go home? I'm cold and tired

- y/n : Come on. Let's go

- Isabella : Mhm.

- y/n : I've got to carry you, seriously? Come on then

- Arizona : Going home?

- y/n : Yep. I've got a grouchy, hungry 9 year old who's having an early night

- Ryan : Bye bye Auntie y/n/n

- y/n : Bye Ryan.Be good. BYE BOYS

- AJ : BYE

- Eli : YEAH

Isabella is fucking exhausted. Tiring day at the office, something like that. She'll fall asleep in the car and probably in her dinner. She won't shower because she's tired so I'll have to wake her up early to shower. Ugh. Okay. That's something to worry about tomorrow. She can sleep on the sofa while I make dinner.

- y/n : Dinner's ready Bells

- Isabella : Mhm

- y/n : It's pasta bake so you've got to sit at the table. I'm going to get changed then I'll be straight there

- Isabella : Did you make garlic bread?

- y/n : If by garlic bread you mean putting garlic butter on sourdough bread, yes.

- Isabella : Thank you

A hoodie and shorts works. It's kind of warm in the house so I don't need leggings. Sometimes I really dress like I could be Isabella's older sister. Haha. I wish. Maybe I wouldn't do drugs if I was a teenager again.

- Isabella : MOM. SOMEONE KNOCKED THE DOOR

- y/n : I'm here. Can you put my plate in the microwave but don't close the door? Thank you Bells

Who the fuck goes to someone's house unannounced at night? Murderers. That's who. Fucking murderers.

- y/n : He- Why are you here?

- Carina : Can I come in?

- y/n : I'm a little busy

- Carina : Please y/n. I want to see Isabell-

- y/n : No. She's my daughter. Legally she's my daughter. Maybe she's your niece but you left us. She's grown up without her dad and you were suppose to be her connection to him but you left. You left her and you left me so get off my property. You have no right to confront me at my home

- Isabella : Mom?

- y/n : Great

- Carina : Hi

- Isabella : Mom I'm tired

- y/n : Go get ready for bed. I'll be up in a minute

- Carina : Does she eve know who I am?

- y/n : She knows. As terrific as this hasn't been I've got to go put Bells to bed. Bye bye

Okay what the fuck. I wasn't expecting Carina to show up on my doorstep YEARS after we last spoke. She literally ignored my texts this whole time. It's not exactly like I'm still in love with her either. I've been on a few dates over the past year or so.

- Isabella : That was Carina wasn't it?

- y/n : It was

- Isabella : Do I have to see her? Is she going to take me away to Ita-

- y/n : Shh. Calm down. No ones taking you away

- Isabella : She won't make me go to Italy with her?

- y/n : No she won't. She hasn't been present in your life and when your dad died he specified he wanted me to raise you because Carina moves a lot

- Isabella : Good. I don't want any other mom

- y/n : I don't want any other Isabella either

Saying I don't want any other daughter would be a lie. After checking with Bells I've applied to adopt. There's a 4 year old girl who we've been visiting and we're due to have a trial night in a few nights.It's to see how we all work together in the same house.

- Isabella : Mom wake up. The dogs need a wee

- y/n : Bells-

- Isabella : One if them peed in the kitchen. Should I let them out?

- y/n : I'm coming

This is what happens when you have a lay in. Your dogs piss on the kitchen floor and your daughter discovers it when she's trying to get a bowl of cereal. It's great, really.

- y/n : Which one of you couldn't wake me up to go pee? Bells open the door for me and I'll get you cereal ready after I clean up

- Isabella : I can do my cereal

- y/n : But you're weird and put the milk before the cereal. That's only acceptable on your second bowl.

- Isabella : That was once when I first made my own cereal

- y/n : Mhm sure

She's telling the truth. She was 4 and she thought you put the milk first. She'd only ever seen me fill a second bowl of cereal, hence the milk first. That's what having a four year old did to me, I began to rely on two bowls of cereal.

Authors Notes
Have a drink and
snack please