Big Shepherd, Little Shepherd

XVIII

YOUR POV

Gift exchange. Great except the fact everyone is watching each other open gifts. I just want to sneak off and see Molly. She's here for Christmas to see me and there was no way I would stand her up.

- Amelia : Merry Christmas y/n/n. The gift is from me and Arizona

- y/n : Thanks Amypoo. Thank you Arizona.

- Rowan : Open it then

- y/n : I'll open it later. I promise there's too many people here looking at me

- Amelia : When did we agree you could call me 'Amypoo' ?

- y/n : When I decided you suited the nickname Amypoo now your all soft

- Amelia : I am not soft! I just love my girlfriend. Arizonaaaa. Y/n's bullying me

- Andrew : I might have to agree with y/n

- Arizona : Same

- Carina : Me too

- Rowan : Oh 100%

There is nothing wrong with it but ever since Amy and Arizona have officially announced their relationship Amelia has been a hell of a lot softer.

- Andrew : Amelia is definitely bottom

- Rowan : Oh god

- Carina : Andrea, shush. There are children present

- y/n : Ew that's my sister

- Rowan : That's my aunt

- Arizona : Yes she is.

- Amelia : No I'm notttt. Not all the time

- y/n : That's enough information about my sisters sex life. I'm going to refill my glass

- Arizona : I'm coming

- Andrew : Ha that's what Amelia said

I'll give Andrew that one. It's funny. Me and Amelia are the only ones not drinking for obvious reasons which means we're always escorted to the kitchen to make sure we don't pour ourselves a glass of wine or crack open a bottle of beer. Rowan is drinking but she's 18 and isn't going anywhere. She's being supervised by adults anyway.

- Arizona : I have a question and I need your honest answer. I-

- y/n : Yes. Already know what your going to say. Yes

- Arizona : Really? You'll let me?

- y/n : Yeah. I'm going to go on a walk though because it's stuffy in here. I'll be back in an hour or so

- Arizona : Okay. Thank you y/n/n. Be back before it's dark

- y/n : I'm just going to the park MOM

- Arizona : Ew no. Go away.

Walk to the park, meet Molly. Same thing really. I'm meeting her ON the walk so technically I didn't lie. I just didn't explain I was going to meet my old junkie friend. Is it getting darker? Yes but I'm not going to drop out on Molly.

- Molly : Long time no see Shepherd

- y/n : Mollyyyyy

- Molly : I bought you a present

- y/n : I didn't get you anything- Mol I'm clean

- Molly : Nice one. I've never gotten shit this pure. One night one won't affect you

- y/n : Molly-

- Molly : Shit that's my phone. I've got to go, my boyfriend is picking me up but keep it. Kade has loads back in LA, come home one day. Bye y/n

What the fuck just happened? I'm sat in a park bench in the dark with a bag of oxy in my hand because I met up with the friend I did drugs with. I don't actually remember phoning anyone but turns out they found me. Guess Arizona was serious about the search party.

- Amelia : Y/n Shepherd is that you sitting on a bench really eerily?

- y/n : Amy I did a bad thing

- Amelia : What's wrong?

- y/n : Amelia, I-

- Amelia : Is that fucking- YOU WENT OUT AND BOUGHT OXY ON CHRISTMAS? WERE YOU PLANNING ON KILLING YOURSE-

- Arizona : Amelia don't finish that sentence

- Amelia : I'm so mad right now. We're leaving

- Arizona : You really disappointed me and her y/n

- y/n : I'm not high

- Arizona : That's not what it looks like. BABE WAIT UP

Lovely. I didn't even get to explain myself. I'm not high, that's the thing. Andrew found me next. Didn't leave. Just sat next to me.

- y/n : Amy thinks I'm high and so does Arizona. They didn't let me explain

- Andrew : I'll listen. You can explain to me love

- y/n : Don't do that. I have a fat crush on your sister

- Andrew : Harmless flirting. Explain

- y/n : My friend for LA was in the area so I met up with her but didn't tell anyone because we used to do drugs together and she bought some, said it was a christmas present before going off with her boyfriend. I wasn't going to do it but I couldn't let it go

- Andrew : Pass it here. I've got it. I've got you

Am I sobbing into my crushes brothers shoulder? Yes. I can tell you the hand on my back definitely isn't his though. Too feminine.

- Carina : Hey bella. Your too pretty to cry. Let me get you home

- y/n : Carina

- Carina : Come on. The house will be warm. I'll get our stuff from Amelia and Arizona's then I'll meet you and Andrea at the house

- Andrew : Come on love

- Carina : Hands off. Mine

- y/n : Please can we just go home

I think we walked home? I'm not sure. All I can think about is Arizona calling me a disappointment to her and Amelia. I promise I try but maybe that's not good enough for them?

- y/n : Woah. Hands off my jeans Andrew

- Andrew : I'd called you 7 times asking if you wanted to get changed. I presumed you were knew a state of like shock or something. I was just going to get you into something comfy and then tuck you in

- y/n : Aw, you're sweet when you want to be. Why the fuck am I so cold?

- Andrew : I'm hot-

- y/n : Get into bed. We're cuddling because your warm and I'm like ice right now. HEY hands off ass

- Andrew : It was worth a try. Goodnight love

- y/n : Night night

Honestly I slept pretty well until I heard hushed talking next to me. Specifically my two favourite Deluca's.

- Carina : Get out my bed and stop touching my y/n like that

- Andrew : Your y/n?

- Carina : Please?

- Andrew : Don't worry. She'll choose you anyday

- y/n : Carinaaa. Come cuddle. Andrew touched my ass

- Carina : I'm coming bella. As soon as my baby brother gets out of my bed

The weight behind me shifted and the blanket was peeled away, letting the air hit my back before another figure slid into the bed behind me and wrapped their arms around my waist.

- Carina : Go back to sleep bella. I've got you

Even if Amelia and Arizona are disappointed and wouldn't let me explain, at least Carina isn't and let me explain.

Authors Notes
I won't lie, this is a relatively
long part but i wrote it
while i was half asleep. Have
a drink and snack please x