I sit here and look at everything around me. I see all the things I love. The big beautiful trees creating shade upon the grass that I have so desperately tried to keep alive. The many plants lining the perimeter of the property. The fruit trees flourishing with an abundance of delicious fruit, ripe and ready to eat. The birds playing with one another and leaves flying about once their wings are in movement. Sitting where I sit on this patio overlooking the life form created in front of my eyes fills me with joy yet I can't help but remember that this is only temporary. This is not the life I created yet it's the one I've always wanted. One day I will eventually move on and create my own life and I fear that I will never be able to bring it to this level of serenity. I fear that I will not succeed in having all the things I love so dearly.
