And all of a sudden I felt really tired. Like the world had drained me for everything that I had but the reality is, it was being around you and with you that was draining me. Sleep was no longer just sleep, it became my escape. All the clouds within me were raining. I just wanted to feel loved by you, without feeling like I was begging for it. You had no idea of the pain that ran through my veins, and the pain that still does. I'm still holding on because I deserved better than that, I was a rainbow and you were colourblind. Black and white is all you ever knew.
It left a mark. Every smile. Every sigh. Every word. Every Moment. It. Left. A. Mark. I will forever be haunted by you. I cant look at myself without withering in hatred for how I let you treat me. For what I let you do to me. Being with you was like I was drowning, and you were standing 3 metres away yelling "learn how to swim" without realising the reason I was drowning was you.
