It's funny to think that if I had of walked the other direction on the day we met, this wouldn't be my life.
In my other life I would have left it at smiley hellos and 'how was your weekends?'
In my other life I wouldn't know that your favourite colours were blue and black. I wouldn't know how you take your tea and coffee. I wouldn't know about your past relationships or your past places of employment. In another life I never would have asked if you wanted to grab a coffee. In another life I never would have picked up that damned cigarette that brought me to smoking with you everyday for over a year. In another life I wouldn't have told you my secrets. In another life I wouldn't have messaged you on Facebook that very first time.
In another life we would just be work colleagues. In another life I wouldn't have become your friend. In another life I never would have fallen for you. In another life I would have never broken up with my girlfriend because i had fallen for you. In another life I wouldn't have packed up my life and moved out of the city. In another life I never would have spent that year sleeping in your bed. In another life I wouldn't have fallen asleep with your hand holding mine or resting upon my leg. In another life I never would have woken up to your morning cuddles. In another life I wouldn't be up early making you a Sunday morning breakfast whilst you slept.
In another life I wouldn't have given you my heart so freely, if I had of known it would end up like this. In another life I never would have had to choke back the tears as I told you I loved you. In another life I would crave you like it was the only thing I was meant to do in my life. In another life I never would have lost our baby. In another life I wouldn't have had to endure endless pain and suffering from losing our baby.
In another life I wouldn't be sat on your bed half bleeding to death, terrified and alone after losing our child whilst you went out with her. In another life I wouldn't have felt like my very existence was to compete with her. In another life her name wouldn't make me stop in my tracks. In another life I would See you together and smile. In another life I never would be grieving what's not dead. In another life I wouldn't be longing for you every time I was sad.
In another life I never would have my dog you bought me. In another life I wouldn't have wanted to jump off a bridge evey time we had a fight. In another life we wouldn't have spent our last days arguing and crying. In another life, I wouldn't have broken my own heart. In another life, I would have walked the other way.
