2:46am
My brother came late to the party but me and him had a serious talk after I excused myself to go to bed, we walked to our house and he told me everything that's going on between him and jasmine and how she's playing the victim, it's really messing with him
3:36am
Yup, my brother is drunk... my brother used to never drink, until this year I guess, he asked for my truck keys and I said I would drive him where he wanted to go and he said he wanted to go to jasmines apartment because he was going to talk to her and tell her to leave him alone, so I took him but I recognized the truck of the guy jasmine is seeing in the parking lot and I got a little scared, he got off the truck and went to knock on the door, he knocked for a while before she came and opened the door but said she didn't want to talk right now and that they should leave it for tomorrow. Scary shit yall, I swear I had this played out in my head where my brother would burst through the door and fight the dude, so imagine how relaxed I felt when he came back and I drove home
5:00am
I can't sleep... why do I have to be in the middle of their drama? I get it I'm the one living there but I don't want to be dragged into their drama, my brother already thinks I'm siding with jasmine when in reality I'm on no one's side, argh this is so frustrating, jasmine has apologized to me before for putting me in these situations and she said she wasn't going to put me in them again but that's exactly what she's doing
5:30am
I want another tattoo.... The feeling of the tattoo needle was so satisfying, I was smiling throughout the whole procedure... I'm craving that feeling again...
What if... I just... never mind... I need to stop thinking that way... goodnight
10:00am
Cats have no personal space whatsoever, but time to shower
11:00am
Just realized my brother isn't home :( I wanted to eat breakfast with him... oh well we're having barbecue tonight I hope
12:00pm
I came an hour early to work :/ I'm so
3:53pm
I swear to fucking god this place is dead asf... and I just heard that they'll be laying off employees and I'm kind of scared that I'll be one of them... I can't be jobless... I need the money and it's my sole purpose for living right now... I don't know what I'll do
7:48pm
SOMEONE JUST GAVE ME A $50 TIP FOR SERVING A GIN AND TONIC!!! IT WASNT EVEN THE EXPENISVE GIN! IT WAS HOUSE GIN! I WENT FROM $66 TO $116 IN LESS THAN 20min!!!!
9:30pm
Somethings definitely off... the voices in my head are getting louder, I'm a lot more jumpy and my palms are really sweaty
10:30pm
Shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up shut up fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you!
Jasmine just slapped my back really hard and I moaned at the pain... I need to feel pain, I crave to feel pain, I want her to hurt me, I keep pushing her buttons because I know she'll hit me, I need her to hit me
11:30pm
We're on our way to the train, we're gonna go drinking tonight, I hope I don't have another episode...
