Faded Sun| SunSun

[Chapter 18]

"What the hell was that? Why did you stay silent?" Riki's voice echoed through the empty practice room. He'd pushed his friend in here, only seconds ago, needing to speak to them immediately. 

"What did you want me to say? Oh I have a girlfriend, he would have made me break up with Mi-Sun." Heeseung replied, bewildered by Riki's questioning.

"Well it's not fair that Sunoo has to break up with Sunghoon, while you're still dating Mi-Sun. We're meant to be a team, and you're meant to be his friend!" Riki snapped, heat rising through his body. A hand wrapped around his wrist, Sunoo's, in attempt to calm the boy down. 

Hand pressed against his forehead, Heeseung sighed in disbelief. "Are you stupid? This has nothing to do with friendship." He said, annoyance prevalent in his voice. "Have you not seen my Instagram? I archived all of my posts with Mi-Sun weeks ago, to protect our relationship. Just because Sunoo's boats sinking, doesn't mean mine has to go down with him." 

"But if you stood by him, maybe Junseo would have dropped it!" Riki's voice raised, along with his heart beat. Sunoo could feel the boy shaking, clearly rage had a hold of him. 

"If! A big if! A big, unlikely if!" Heeseung shouted back. "You wanna talks if's? Here's one for you, If Sunoo kept his mouth shut, then he wouldn't be forced to break up with Sunghoon!" 

"I didn't want to risk Junseo finding out after." Sunoo's voice was small, unable to make a presence like the others. He didn't have it in himself to shout right now, he was too devastated. "What are you going to do when he discovers you lied? Cause surely he will, with all the measures they've put in place." 

"He won't, I can easily outsmart him, and you could too. I really don't understand why I'm being attacked, when I've done nothing wrong." Heeseung groaned, frustratingly pushing his hand up through his hair. "You guys are being stupid."

"Stop calling me stupid!" Riki yelled, lunging forward. 

Sunoo's grip was unable to hold him back, as he ran straight into Heeseung. The older boy was shocked, feeling his body shoved against the mirror. 

"Riki stop!" Sunoo screamed, attempting to drag Riki off of Heeseung. 

With help of the older boys shove, Riki was sent tumbling back. Instantly, he ran towards Heeseung again, the boy catching him in a head lock. Riki struggled, as he was pushed to the ground, Heeseung laying atop of him, pinning down his arms. 

"What the fuck is wrong with you?! Don't fucking attack me!"

Riki continued to struggle under Heeseung, his eyes lethal, staring up, like he wanted to kill him. Sunoo stood back, hand slapped over his mouth. He tried all he could to hold back the tears, this was too overwhelming. 

"I won't let you go, until you calm down!" Heeseung said, through gritted teeth. "What is your problem? This isn't even about you."

"You only care about yourself! I'm sick of it! You didn't give a shit when Jungwon couldn't debut, because it didn't affect you! Well it affected me, it affected Sunoo! We know he's not debuting, but we're allowed to be upset!" His voice was breathy, clear exhaustion from his squirming.

Heeseung didn't respond, he didn't know how to. Riki misunderstood him, something that pained him to his core. The fact that his friends didn't think he cared about them, or Jungwon not debuting. It stung, in a way he'll never forget.

"You've proven it again! You only do what's best for you, and call us stupid when we don't follow your selfish mindset! I actually found out recently about something, I didn't think much of it at the time, but now I realize how fucked up it was!" 

"What are you talking about?"

"The stuff you told Mi-Sun about Sunoo! You outed him to his sister, that's messed up!" 

"How..." Heeseung's grasp disappeared, as he stumbled backwards. His eyes darted to Sunoo, who seemed just as confused. Riki shouldn't have known that, it was impossible for him to know that.

"You did what?" Sunoo choked out, watching Heeseung frantically push himself off the floor. Riki followed, rushing to stand in front of Sunoo, before Heeseung could make it over.

"I can explain." He sighed. Finding it ironic how Riki 'protected' Sunoo, like he wasn't the violent one. "I didn't out you, I just mentioned how you were seeing Sunghoon on the night you went to get Tteokbokki. Mi-Sun didn't know you liked boys then, so I shouldn't have told her. I'm sorry, but it was a mistake I made two years ago, can we not make it a bigger issue than it is."

"That sounds like outing to me, which is a big issue!" Riki snapped. 

Heeseung chose to ignore Riki, looking to Sunoo instead. The boys silence was worrying. His eyes glossed over, making unsteady eye contact with the room. He just wanted him to say something, anything, to tell him how he felt. Truthfully he'd felt guilty about that night for two years, but this wasn't the time or place to hash it out. 

"Sunoo..."

"I think I'm gonna throw up." Sunoo covered his mouth, running out of the room. He sprinted down the corridor with tears pouring down his face, all the way to the bathroom.

Pushing open the first stall, Sunoo collapsed onto the floor, heaving over the toilet. Nothing came out, but the motion remained. His stomach twisted, and his head pounded, he really felt like he was going to be sick. 

The sound of pattered footsteps increased, all the way to Sunoo's side. Riki rushed into the stall, crouching down next to him. "Are you alright? Lets get you home." He added, stroking the boys pink locks. 

The heaving stopped, yet, the tears kept falling. His eyes squinted closed, sinking into Riki's embrace. His hands gripped the soft fabric of his sweater, weeping uncontrollably into the comforting material. 

"I don't want to break up Sunghoon, and I don't want anything to do with Heeseung! Is this even worth it anymore?!"