An Angel From Hell - Niko Moilanen

Secret

 
I stopped in the big entering door of the building. I felt like I couldn't walk anymore.

In a matter of seconds I had to see Jake, what I was supposed to tell him?

I looked in the black screen of my phone and faced myself. I felt disgusted with the person I saw

I felt like I could still taste Niko on my lips and this made me feel even more guilty.

I wiped my lips with my hand and took a deep breath.

I had to stay calm and decided that I wouldn't say something for now. Atleast not now that we are in his house. I really don't know what could Jake do.

I put a smile on and started to walk in the car.

I opened the door while he was on the phone with someone.

"I gotta close now, see you tomorrow" he hang up when I entered the car and closed the door behind me. "Hey" he smiled to me and pulled me in for a kiss.

His lips touching the same spots where Niko's lips were some minutes ago.

I softly pulled away like nothing happened and tried to start a conversation

"So who will you see tomorrow?" I asked and started the car trying to seem calm

"Oh Vilma, we are gonna meet with her boyfriend" he said and put his phone on his pocket.

My smile.... My fake smile faded. I thought we would go out all together why did he pick this day when he already knew that I wouldn't be able to attend. I really wanted to know Vilma's boyfriend and get to know her better. She seemed like an really interesting person and spending time with other people would make my mind forget what happened. I could think about something else and focus on Jake.

"I thought you all would like to go on a double date, why tomorrow that I gotta help Joel and Aleksi with their interview?" I looked at him disappointed and then back in the road.

That was the only job I wanted to avoid. Niko also would be in the interview and they wanted me to help them with their makeup and clothes. I was fine with Joel and Aleksi and actually i was really happy to help them both but him.... Not him

"Babe, I know but her boyfriend is leaving to meet his parents in Sweden and when he will be back we won't be here" he placed his hand on my thigh "you know how much I wanted you to meet them and get to know Vilma better but" before he could continue i interrupted him.

"Yea, it's fine don't worry about me" I looked in the road and we didn't talk for the entire drive.

I didn't know what to say. I kissed someone else that wasn't my boyfriend and here I am getting mad at Jake because he wants to meet his friends. And what? I want him to cancel it because I can't also go?  I wasn't like that. I'm changing and I don't like the Taina I'm becoming because of Niko.....

"Jake..." I looked at him when we got out of the car.

"Yea?" He stopped walking and came close to me

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't be mad. It's just that I really wanna spend time with you before you leave and I really wanna know your friends but I'm acting selfish" I hugged him and buried my head on his neck "I'm sorry" I felt tears running through my cheeks.

I really wished that the tears were because that I couldn't go with him tomorrow but the reason is completely different and that broke me. I felt bad, I felt like the worst person in the world.

How could I do this? How could I like this kiss when it was not from Jake but someone that hates me?

I wanted so much to tell everything to Jake but this would destroy him. If I hurted Jake I wouldn't never forgive myself. He loves me and is always there for me and he could never cheat to me and what I did? Exactly the opposite....  I kissed my enemy....