An Angel From Hell - Niko Moilanen

Heart and Brain Race

 
  The minutes passed and Niko was getting the most comforting while the time went by.

I can't lie that I don't recognize this person. He's different. He's not the Niko I'm used to face and avoid.

I didn't speak but he kept saying that I can talk and that I would feel better this way but I couldn't. I really don't know if I can trust him.

My head was on his chest and even if I knew how wrong what I was doing was I didn't move. It felt good and okay even if I was sure that I would regret it later.

I'm probably giving him hope and that's exactly what I don't want to do but I can't be alone now. I need someone and this happened to be him.

"You can trust me" he moved my hair behind my ear and looked in my face

I want to but I can't, not after what happened in the past. What if he's same as Jake or even worse? What if he's playing his role again just to make me talk and then he's gonna use my feelings against me.

I kept my head down and I decided to focus on his breath and the way his chest was moving calmly.

"What is Rommi doing?" I asked about his cat just to make the situation less awkward even if it wouldn't help a lot tho. 

"Oh he's really good" I could feel him smiling

He seems to love his pet and he really takes care of it as I saw back then when I was on his house and it was more than my pleasure to meet little Rommi.

"You could visit him one day" I moved my head and looked into his eyes.

I really wanted to and my heart was screaming yes but not my logic. My brain was saying to get up and push Niko out of my house before it's too late, before I make any worse damage, before I make the final move to destroy me.

"Uh I don't know" I had promised to myself that after what happened there I would never go to his house again. Never

"It's up to you" I felt him wrapping his arms around me and I let my body to relax even if my brain and heart were having a race to see who would win to make me take my decision. And I hope the right ones.

After sometime seems like the race was done and the following actions showed that brain and logic won.

When I realized with who I was staying this close, I immediately got up and walked away from him

"What happened?" He was confused

Niko honestly, I'm even more confused now and I can't understand what the hell is going on inside my head

"That's wrong" I pointed between me and him "You shouldn't be here and I shouldn't be in your arms" I pushed my hair away from my face and Niko just made himself sit more comfortably in the sofa

"For me it feels so right" he misceviously smiled

He has to leave. What if Joel had walked in while I was laying there on his arms? Oh Taina you should have thought about it way too earlier. It's too late now. How I'm supposed to make him leave

"You should leave because for me it doesn't feel and isn't right" I tried to make him get up but end up failing

I grabbed his hands and tried again but he pulled me on him and I ended up on his lap. He held my waist and it's like my legs died and I couldn't get up

"I'm here to help not to take advantage of the situation Taina" he calmly said in my ear and it felt like his voice got deeper

Can Joel storm in now please? He's the one to help because I officially can't help my self not after trapping me in this situation. Things will end up bad. Really bad for me but I'm not doing anything know and this will cost me lot of sleepless nights in the future