An Angel From Hell - Niko Moilanen

Bad Person

 
  When we went inside our house I felt a bit relieved that Jake wasn't there. I really couldn't see him now or else I would brust out crying and admit him everything.

This conversation with Joel helped a lot and I really should have said him earlier.

"I'm gonna be on my bedroom if you need anything" I said to Joel before heading upstairs and he just nodded.

I needed some time for myself right now even if i knew that I would end up locked in an unrealistic thought and expectation.

I took my shoes off and laid on bed.
I have to try to keep Niko away of my mind.

Joel will keep him away from me for real and I have to fucking throw him out of my mind if I finally want to live and be happy with Jake.

And just like I was trying to do a good job with my mind a message came in my phone and everything went down.
I had completely forgotten that he has my number from when Joel had called me from his phone.

Niko
"Remember I'm gonna find the proof Taina and then the pretty world that you've built in you head is gonna get destroyed"

I closed my phone again and didn't reply on this. Get destroyed? It is already getting destroyed Niko and because of you. I don't need those fucking fake proofs. Jake is innocent and he did nothing wrong.

2 hours passed and I was in the kitchen eating lunch with Joel when the door opened and Jake walked in.

"Hey guys" he said when he took his jacket and shoes off.

"Hey" I got up and went to hug him

I needed this.... After what I did after what we did Niko. I felt safe on Jake's arms but what maybe me sick in my stomach is that I still was scared that Niko could find those proofs and what if they are not fake as I want to believe? 

"Babe I also missed you" I wrapped my arms even more tighter around his waist and just stayed there smelling his perfume. But I didn't dare to look away.

I could feel Joel's eyes on me and that made me feel even more nervous and guilty.

What I'm doing is trash, it's crazy but there's no other option. I love Jake and I would do everything so I wouldn't lose what we have.

When we were done with our lunch, Jake and I went upstairs in my bedroom.

"Are you sure that nothing happened? You really don't seem good love" he said when I laid my head on his lap and he started to play with my hair

"Everything is fine, you know working with Niko isn't my best. That's all" I looked up at him and tried to hard not to tell him the truth

"Are you sure that's all?" He asked me and I got up to face him

"I promise but now let's forget Niko babe" I smiled at him and he pulled me on his lap

He connected our lips and I got the same euphoria in the spots he touched.

Spots in my mouth that some time ago where touched but someone else, not their owner.

I held Jake's face and depended our kiss some minutes after I was laying in bed and Jake went to lock the door.

What I'm doing here now is even more wrong. Instead of telling him everything I keep lying to him and now just try to have this moment to make me forget about Niko for an hour or some more? Still it doesn't help

I felt Jake undressing me and kissing his way down on my body. I have to feel this moment even if it's my last one. I have to tell Jake and I don't care what's gonna happen. He has to know the truth and I can't keep being a liar to the person that I love and plan to marry even if that's never gonna happen after what's he's gonna find out.

In a matter of some minutes my clothes were off and Jake was sending me to heavens with my high approaching.

I really wondered how Niko could make me feel, while I'm with Jake. No no NO
I should to fucking stop this shit. I'm with Jake, we are making love and I'm thinking about how could an another man make me feel and when we've already kissed twice.
I'm a bad person

When some time later we were done I was in the bathroom having a shower. I looked in the mirror before getting under the water and saw all the places that Jake had just marked. I'm in love. I'm in love with Jake but why does someone else keep flying in my mind

I would feel so bad if Jake would be thinking about someone else while we're on our moment and now I'm the one doing exactly this thing.

I went under the warm water at least this would help my body nerves to calm down. 
What Joel thought is one of the best solutions. Working from home till I manage to throw him out of my head forever is the best decision.
But what if he never leaves?

It was midnight and I was on Jake's arms while he was sleeping and softy snoring next to me. I wasn't brave enough. No i couldn't tell him all of this. How I'm supposed to tell him that I kissed someone else, that I cheated, after what we did.

It felt impossible and it actually is. My blonde best friend is right. For now it stays between me, him and Niko.
And when I closed my eyes and tried to turn my thoughts off my phone buzzed

Niko
"You told Joel?" I again didn't reply but he kept spamming me and if I didn't do anything I would end up reading the message together with Jake.

"I did" I pressed send and put my phone aside but again another message came

Niko
"You're not escaping me Taina. Whatever you do" I could feel him laughing and smirking  behind his phone screen

"Just leave me alone Niko"
I finally turned my phone off and never checked my messages again. Not till the morning.

Today unfortunately I had to go in the studio because if I disappeared this way it would be suspicious for everyone but facing Niko makes want to run in another country if it's possible.

When I got in, I was alone or atleast thought that I was.

Soon the brunnete one appeared and I felt like I just lost my ability to walk, talk, and breath

Why this time I had to come here early? Couldn't I wait outside for Aleksi? My luck really doesn't help me a lot those days.

"Oh well well" he chuckled and placed his mug of coffee in the table "Good morning Taina" 

"Morning" I decided to be polite this time but also don't say a lot. We didn't need to

"Why did you say it to Joel?" He followed me in the kitchen 

This man really can't stay back.

"Not your business" I turned to look at him and then infront of me the coffee that I was trying to make

Why the hell he cares know? He can't understand that I'm in a relationship and now it's so hard for me. It's hard because I don't know if I should tell my boyfriend that I cheated. I feel guilty everytime I'm with Jake after the first kiss we shared and he still keeps going and asking like something normal happened.

"When I was the one to taste your lips then it is my fucking business" he said and I walked away letting the coffee behind.

If I had stayed maybe he would find the opportunity to have another kiss with me and that's exactly not what I wanted know. No matter what or where. I don't want him close to me

"I'm making you nervous again? That's why you leaving? Oh poor Taina" he smirked and i felt blood in my head

Why he has to be like that? Now again he is Infront of me mocking me like he is five years old.

"Shut up please" I said hoping that he would listen this time and just stop and let me do my job. The reason I actually came here.

"You can help me to shut up. You know a good way" he smirked but I just throw him his jacket and walked once again to the kitchen to finish the coffee that I left behind.

I was doing everything to avoid him and for now it was working but I don't know for how long since my mind keeps playing on replay our kisses since I saw him here.

*Author's note
Another chapter
Some Jake, some Niko,some Taina 💀😃
The next chapter i think or the chapter after the next one is gonna reveal a lot
Enjoy 🖤