An Angel From Hell - Niko Moilanen

Liar

  Two weeks. Almost two whole weeks went by since I found out what Jake had been doing behind my back but also almost two weeks since he fought with Niko.

I'm sure that Niko won't forget this... 
I've been more calm those days and I actually go more usually in the studio. I can't lie and tell that I'm not avoiding Niko.

The day he got hurt by Jake we once again came really close but I can't do it. A voice inside me keeps telling that I can't trust him or that it's too early to move on.

I never answered on his questions if I actually believe that the kisses we shared were the best I've ever had but I couldn't. Now I hope he has forget about it.

There were a lot of moments that he tried to come close to me but I did everything to avoid him.

It was harder the last days because Joel was in Oulu to see his family but this time I could control myself and don't give up this easily like I used to do every time I saw him.

I've been spending most of my time working on the songs with Aleksi. He helped me get my mind off and I preferred that instead of staying home and thinking about what Jake did or trying to get a final decision about the situation with Niko.

Aleksi told me a lot of times to listen to my heart but she's also as confused as I and my brain are. So she can't help right now. She can't show me the right road

Joel had been in Oulu for a week now and he's gonna be back in two days. It's a long time since he saw his family and since we didn't need him for any recordings those days we made him take some time off and have some peace and quiet with himself and his family.

"It sounds good" Aleksi Said when we were done with mixing Niko's voice with the music and every other part "not like my version but okay" he smirked and I playfully hit his shoulder.

Aleksi is honestly a really good friend to me, especially since what happened with Jake he had always been there to help me. Just like back In times, in Netherlands. We used to have so much fun back then.

"Yea of course little man" I knew that this nickname was annoying him most of time and that's why I was referring to it now.

Niko was sitting in the couch opposite us and he was eyeing his phone and me and Aleksi in turns.

It was already dark outside, so everyone was gone except of the three of us since we wanted to finish the mixing and Niko wanted to listen to it.

"Niko what do you think?" I asked him hopefully that he would go with my side.

"Aleksi's is better" his answer wasn't to my surprise though.

The last week, he doesn't talk a lot to me and when he does it's only about the bands stuff or just to annoy me like back in times.

Every minutes that passed with old Niko the more relieved I felt that I didn't open up on him and I didn't talk about how I really felt. He would for real use everything against me.

I didn't reply to him and Aleksi also preferred to stay quiet.

When one hour passed Niko had left to buy something and he would be back to get his keys and jacket.

"I honestly don't know what's going on with him" the black haired man said confused while he was wearing his jacket.

"The Niko I first met, came back. That's all" I also got ready to leave

I didn't have on my plans to return home tonight. I would spend the night in Aleksi's since I don't wanna be alone once again and I really enjoy his company.