An Angel From Hell - Niko Moilanen

Where Is Old Niko?

   
    Every picture of me and Jake belongs to the past now. He belongs in the past and we have no future together from now on. Even if it hurts like I'm burning in hell I prefer it than being his stupid game that was so idiot and in love to find out what he was doing behind my back.

There were so many messages in my phone and calls that I never answered but I can't and I don't want to. At least for now I don't want him to know that I found out.

"Please I'm worried babe, what's going on?"  The most recent message before 10 minutes

Why does he even care? He can have his fun with Vilma and leave me alone. I didn't choose this way. He picked our future, for both of us so I'm helping to destroy the relationship we used to have, although he had already started destroying it so many months ago.

I closed my laptop and walked downstairs in the kitchen to fill my mug with tea once again.

The memories of 8 years got deleted in a matter of hours, but unfortunately they got deleted only on my laptop and not my mind.

They will always live free in my heart and mind to remind how much pain he caused me.

Honestly I'm curious of what he's gonna say when I tell him that I know and that we're done. Ohh he's gonna feel so relieved that he doesn't have to tell me himself but I really wish he's gonna feel even a little of the guilt that I felt when I kissed Niko.

What If I told him back then what we did? He would break up with me and blame me for it and this way he would be happy with her and I would never find out that he was the one that destroyed our relationship and ended our future.

Thank God I have Joel with me. I really don't know how things would be if I was alone and soon enough the others will know.... I don't care about the four of them I'm sure that they will also help me a lot but him.... Niko!

I don't know how I will manage living near him when he's gonna get on my head by saying that he warned me and that he was right and I'm scared of what he's gonna try now.

After staying in my room and looking in the wall I don't even know for long I decided to go out. I have to see people, to breath some fresh and cold air.

Staying in the whole time doesn't do good. I overthink all the things and blame myself for Jake's mistakes and everything reminds him. Even the most common things.

I opened my closet to get ready and there I found not only my things but some of his clothes that he always left here.

I took them out and grabbed a bag.
I put everything in and pushed the bag under my bed.

I can't lie that I thought about throwing them out but no, I won't be a bitch and i should keep my head up even if it's not easy.

I locked the house and left the building.
I think I'm gonna scare the people that walk past me. Honestly my eyes never were so red.

I didn't have a destination in my mind. I would just walk till a place and then back, I didn't have the energy or the perfect mood to go to a place where it was crowded.

While I was walking, my phone buzzed. I checked even if I was sure that it was another call or message from Jake

"I'm sorry Niko knows" It was from Joel

How and why does he know. It was the only thing I asked from Joel

I clicked on his name and number and called him

"Why?" I asked when he answered the phone

"I'm sorry Taina" he tried to apologise

"There's no sorry. Why did you tell him?" I stopped walking and pushed my hair out of my face