An Angel From Hell - Niko Moilanen

Many Personalities

Two days. It's been two days since what I did with Niko.

All this time I've been trying to avoid Jake. and I successfully managed to do it. When he called Joel answered and said I was asleep or in the bathroom and I called him once in the midnight that obviously he wouldn't answer so I wouldn't have to face him.

I don't think he is actually worried about me, if he really cared he would do something and don't just wait for the time I'm not sleeping to call me.

Now about Niko, I did tell Joel. I wanted a better advice than the one that Aleksi gave me that night. We should listen to our heart but what if she's wrong? What if she's so confused like mine? How can I trust her?

He suggested me to stay away from him and work just for some days and that I really should clear things out in my mind because this time it was not his fault but mine. I made the move, I kissed him

"Okay bye, I will tell her" Joel hang up the phone for a second time since the time we woke up and it's just 11 am

Of course it was Jake again asking if I'm up this time. Is he even more dumb than I was? How can he believe the shit we say?

"I think you should tell him, it can't go like this" Joel said and came to continue his breakfast

I took a sip from my coffee and nodded.

"You're right but it's not easy" I looked at him and laughed "you know I'm gonna be like. Aye I know what you have been doing all those months" I kept laughing and grabbed a cookie

"It's been a long time since I saw you laughing" he also grabbed some milk to pour it in his coffee

"I know but believe me there won't be any tears from now on. Only laughs and smiles" or at least that's what I wish for my future

I don't want to cry anymore and especially not over a man but the situation with Niko doesn't make think that I'm gonna make it without tears

It is hard to make a decision, to understand what I truly want but I'm also afraid to let my self free to choose.

I'm afraid, I know both of his sides and the one is scaring me to death. 
What if this side I'm used to face is the one he lives with?
At first he treated me the worst way, he admitted that he hated me and some days ago he was here saying that he wants to help and comfort me.
How many personalities does this man have?

"I will be back by the afternoon" Joel said before leaving the apartment to go to the studio

Just before he opened the door the doorbell rang.

"Perfect timing" I said behind him and he laughed

He opened the door and my mouth dropped. He came here...

I thought he was flying to Spain today not Finland. Why did he appear like this infront of me. I totally wasn't ready for this

"I thought you were sleeping" he walked in and I just kept an eye contact with Joel.

We both were shocked and completely confused.

"Now it's the time and I wish I could stay but I have to go" he pat my shoulder and wished me a good luck before leaving us alone.

First time being alone with Jake after finding out what he had been doing all this time.

"Why have you been avoiding me?" He asked me when I finally sat down in the sofa

Okay so now I have to remain calm and tell him that I know. Oh it sounds so easy to do but unfortunately it's not

I looked at him and took a breath. I will just drop the bomb he created