An Angel From Hell - Niko Moilanen

Bad Feeling

   And the days went by really fast. And the month came to it's end. Today Jake is leaving for England and now I have to fight alone my demons.

And I was doing well, when I said that I wouldn't go in the studio I meant it. In almost 20 days I went there just 3 times.

Unfortunately I had to meet Niko those three times but Joel was there so he wasn't able to do or say anything.

He's been sending me some messages but I ignored them. I payed attention only on my job and tried to spend some good time with my boyfriend.

It worked most of the time, I wasn't thinking about him but still he wasn't gone. I knew it that he wouldn't disappear this easily from my mind. 

Our kisses again stayed deep in my thoughts and I kept remembering some times when I was alone but I was fighting against it and Jake being here helped a lot but now that he is leaving I don't know how easy it's gonna be for me to make it out of this forest.

I was never brave enough to talk about it to Jake and obviously I will never be especially since I found out that he never cheated but Niko just wanted to make things even more complicated.

It was 10 am and he's flight is almost in two hours, so I drove him in the airport.

"I'm gonna miss you" I wrapped my arms around him and tried to take as much as I could from him

"I will also miss you but we're gonna call everyday and soon I will be here again" he held my chin and connected our lips

After a bit Vilma also came. They would travel in the same flight since in two days they have to go to Spain.

"You sure that I don't have to stay?" I asked him when half an hour passed

"I'm gonna be fine, now I'm not alone so you don't have too spend your time here" he caressed my shoulders and we both got up

"When you find time call me okay?" He nodded and pulled me for a hug
"I love you" I said as my face was in the crook of his neck

"I love you more darling" he whispered and waved at me when I left

For another day I wouldn't go in the studio even if Niko wouldn't be there today I just didn't feel like it.

When I arrived I opened the door and took my shoes off.

It's been less than an hour since I left the airport but again I missed a lot Jake. I got used to him after spending a month with him. And what scares me the most is that I'm afraid that I won't be able to control my thoughts and I will destroy everything and go to find Niko. Even if we just talked even that was enough for him. Just a word, just a minute with Niko can change everything again after how hard I've tried.

"Okay so I heard the part's, I think we should add some bass in the first 20 seconds and then some guitar" I was saying on Aleksi that called me on the phone after listening to the files that he send me on my laptop.

"Say this to Joel cause he doesn't listen" Aleksi inhaled deeply

"Joel listen to him, cmon now" I said louder and I was sure that the blonde one was rolling his eyes right now

We've been in the call for over than two hours and that's when we hang up. I needed to cook something since I was starving and they would also go out to eat something. They would continue later and probably call me again if they needed help.

I was eating, scrolling through Instagram when a new story of Niko came up. He was in a park with a blonde woman. They seemed pretty close. Oh right, that's how men get over a break up. His words came up again in my mind and I laughed to myself