An Angel From Hell - Niko Moilanen

I Miss Your Lips

 

  I had one of the best days of my life today and I really enjoyed every second of it.

I felt so sad when our date and night had to come to an end but we had all the days infront of us.

"I'm gonna see you tomorrow. Good night Taina" he kissed me when we arrived infront of my door

"Why don't you come in?" obviously the detail that Joel isn't in Oulu anymore but back here slipped from my mind.
I just got used to him so easily and fast

Also yesterday we slept together and it just felt too good to be true that I just want to feel this again.
I want to fell his steady heart beat while I'm slowly falling asleep.
Listen to his calm breath while he's stroking my side or hand.

The feeling that I'm not alone. That I have someone by my side that cares about me, about my feelings.

Just a day with him and he treats me so right. He makes me feel that I did exactly the best choice to talk about how I feel, to reveal what I've been thinking all this time.

I was still on his arms not letting go.
My face was hidden in the crook of his neck and I could smell his perfume. I don't want to go back inside alone now.

I have to wait till tommorow to see him, to feel him, to taste his lips for one more time.

"Joel will get worried and I can't stay again here since he's back" he gave me a kiss in my neck which made me smile widely

Even if he said that he had to leave he was still keeping me close not allowing me to walk away from his arms.

I was scared, I was so damn afraid that I would get hurt again, that he's not the person that he showed me in my lowest. I didn't believe in anything that my heart was screaming to me.

She was shouting so loud for too long now that I was falling for him and no-one was able to catch me.... Not until yesterday
I'm safe now. He makes me feel safe.
I'm okay with Niko, at least that's what I'm hoping and wishing for.

I didn't even realize when he left and I was already in my room changing my clothes into my pyjamas.
He unfortunately really left but I can understand that it would be really awkward.

When I was done with my clothes I walked in Joel's bedroom. I didn't see him today so it's been so many days since we saw each other.

And I'm sure that we have a lot to discuss and he has a lot of questions that I will have to answer.

"Hey" I whispered when I pushed the door open.

He was laying in bed, scrolling on his phone. He made me a sign so I would go there, next to him.

Let's hope that he doesn't want a lot of details, just gonna explain the most serious parts and I really hope that he's really happy for us and didn't pretend earlier

He opened his arms and I went to hug him

"I missed you" he laughed

True, what's happening with Niko isn't the main thing. Joel came back from Oulu after so many days and I haven't seen him for a while and we didn't met in the morning

"Same" I managed to mumble since he was squeezing me

I always loved and liked Joel's hugs but sometimes he could take your breath away. Of course he is doing it just for fun and to show love but still I think that I need some air to stay alive

When we pulled away he was looking at me with a huge smirk on his face.
Obviously he's gonna ask now

"So Mrs tell me what's going on" he held my hands and he also looked really excited to know more about what's happening