Josh Richards Imagines

I L O V E Y O U

Sylar's POV-

I had been sitting in the waiting room of the hospital waiting room for about 2 hours now waiting for the verdict on my grandma. Last night she took a turn for the worst. About 3 years ago she diagnosed with cancer. She went through chemo and everyone thought she was fine. A few months ago they found traces of cancer still in her body. Although they knew it had came back, they couldn't do anything about it at the time. It finally came time where she could begin chemo again and everything was fine. She got to go home a few weeks later but she was still on medicine. She went to one of her doctors appointments and they said there could be a chance for surgery because the cancer came back again and in order for her to stay cancer free she might need to get it removed manually. She went home and continued to take her medicine. And now your caught up. From the talk I've been hearing in the waiting room between my parents and my aunt and uncles. it seems like the cancer took over her body and she is in surgery right now. I was extremely close with my grandma and everyone knew that. All of this was extremely scary for me right now. My boyfriend Josh is blowing my phone up and I feel like if I answer hes gonna be mad at me for not answering right away. And that brings us into another thing. My relationship before Josh was extremely toxic.  He was very abusive and it was my first serious relationship and so I didn't quiet click in my head that the way he was treating me was not how I should've been treated. If I didn't answer him back right away he would hurt me. Josh got me through that relationship and supported me while I worked up the courage to break up with him. But anyways I was not my usual self and I was terrified of what might happen to my grandma and I was in my own world. I didn't really want to talk to anybody including Josh which was weird for me because I always talked to him no matter what.

*** skip about 30 minutes ***

The doctor finally came out.

( doctor- D ) 

D- hey guys

Everyone- hi

D- I really hate to say this but she unfortunately passed during the surgery.

he said while tearing up

When he said those words they instantly shattered my heart. It was like the life was sucked out of me.

D- we were able to save her once but the second time she slipped we were to far along in the surgery to stop. we did everything we could to save her but it was out of our control

I kept my head in my legs while tears slipped out of my eyes. I could tell everyone else was also crying.

D- we are going to get everything together that you need and we are so very sorry for your loss.

I just sat there for a moment in disbelief and then I felt someone rub my back. I left my head up to see my dad. I got up and hugged him tight and then my mom came over to us so I hugged her too. 

M- how about you go home and take a shower and then get some rest ok

She said while sniffing. I drove myself over here and so I said ok and then walked out to my car. I got in and then just sobbed all the way home. It was about a 30 minute drive and by the time I got home i had a terrible headache. When I pulled into my driveway I noticed a car in the driveway and a figure standing on my porch. I couldn't tell who it was at first and I noticed that it was Josh. I was terrified that he was going to be mad at me and then I realized that had just been crying for 30 minutes straight. I cleaned myself up the best I could and then turned my car off and then got out. Once I got out Josh ran up to me and hugged me. A hug from him is what I needed and I just wanted to cry in his arms but I knew I needed to hold it together.

J- oh my god baby are you ok

S- y-yeah I'm fine

J- are you sure your voice sound shaky and you didn't answer my texts and that's not like you.

when he said that I just broke down. I ran back into his arms and cried in his chest.

J- I don't know what's going on but let's go inside ok

I nodded my head and I gave my key to Josh and he unlocked the door and turned on the lights. I was still hugging him because I just needed that sense of security and comfort and he gives me that. We walked into the living room and sat down on the couch. I just curled up in his arms and let out a few more sobs which eventually turned into hiccups. He just held me tight and didn't say a word.

J- babygirl what's wrong

S- I-i-i-i

I tried to speak but nothing came out

J- listen. I just want you to talk to me ok. that's all I want. No matter what it is we will work through it together 

I took a deep breath. I knew I had to tell him but I felt like If I said it out loud it would actually be real not just a bad dream.

S- I-i was at t-the h-hopital 

J- ok that's a good start

S-b-because g-grammys c-c-cancer came back

J- oh baby I'm so sorry

I grabs my hand a squeezes it  as a reassurance that everything was going to be ok

S- t-they t-took her to s-surgery and that why i-i-i wasn't answering

J- princess you have no reason to be texting me while you grandma is in surgery. You need to focus on her and only her so don't be scared because you don't text me back right away because it doesn't matter. I just want to know your ok.

S- a-and while s-she was i-in s-s-surgery s-she she she p-p-p-passed a-away

Hearing those word come out of my mouth felt like someone was stabbing my in the heart. He just grabbed my head and held me close to him. He knew how close I was with her and I knew he was hurting for me.

J- I know this isn't going to help but I am so sorry baby. I wish I could understand how you feel but I can't so I'm not gonna say I can. I can say that she is looking down at you right now and she wouldn't want you to stay in all day crying. I know how much you loved her and it was no secret how much she loved you. So lets go upstairs and get some sleep ok

S- ok

I had cried so much within and hour or two that I think I ran out of tears for the night. I just clung onto Josh for the rest of the night afraid to let go. I understand that it was her time but I don't know why it happened so fast. I think the part that hurt the most was not being able to say goodbye. The last thing I said to her was I love you. I fell asleep knowing that grammy was looking down on me.

A/N- So this one was sad but I think it was a good one not sure though. Let me know what other ones you want to so because I have no ideas and I really need some so if you want and specific one just let me know and I will do them and give you creds!!!!