Josh Richards Imagines

S A V E D M Y L I F E

thank you too @charlyxjosh for this request! it's just like the last one in the way of a continuation. i will also be adding a name to this. 

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if you haven't read it here it is...

"you want to cuddle with jeans on?" your boyfriend josh asked looking at you suspiciously. you nodded hesitantly. "you usually don't. you left some shorts here, you can wear them instead.". he got up getting your shorts out of his closet that you left last time. you shook your head. he walked over to you looking in your eyes, "what's going on y/n? you can tell my anything.". you felt tears running down your face. "baby.." he whispered wrapping his arms around you tightly. "i j-just don't want you to be upset." you told him. "tell me y/n". you stayed quiet for a few seconds,"i-i did it again.". he squeezed you tighter, "baby, i'm not upset. i'm glad you told me. can i see?". you pulled away and slowly took off your jeans. he got down on his knees in front of you and saw your cuts. he kissed each one, slowly, over and over again before looking up at you. "i love you, please don't hurt yourself. if you ever feel like you're going to, call me and i'll come pick you up and we'll watch a movie or something ok love?" you looked down at him and nodded, he grabbed the short and placed them at your feet. you put one foot in and then the other and he pulled them up. he stood up and kissed you softly on your forehead. "w-wanna bake cookies?" you asked with tears stained on your face. he wiped them away, "last one there has to wash the dishes." he said and you ran ahead of him. he looked down at the floor, "for you i'd bleed myself dry..." he picked your jeans up off of the floor and folded them placing them on his bed. "i guess you're washing the dishes!" he heard you call from downstairs. he laughed and slowly walked downstairs seeing you taking out stuff from the fridge. he walked up behind you and wrapped his arms around you, kissing your neck making you smile. "i love you josh." you whispered, "i love you more." he said back.

charly's pov:

josh and i began baking cookies. the whole time we were laughing and having a good time. i was with my favorite person and i was doing something that i love to do. all of my problems disappeared and i forgot about everything in the moment. i have a really bad family problems. my parents are always fighting. it's been like this for a while and i spiraled down a dark hole. once i met josh my life got significantly better. i found someone i could talk to and my parents slowed down on the fighting. josh has a weird thing where when he likes a girl he distances himself a little bit. coincidentally at the time he distanced himself is when my parents starting fighting all the time. i felt like my world collapsed. the boy i loved left me, or so i thought, and my parent problems came up again but even worse. so i resorted to the only thing that i thought would solve everything. cutting myself. one day i went to school and i had enough. i was going to end it all in the bathroom at school. i told my teacher that i had to use the bathroom and as soon as i stepped out of the classroom i started having a mental break down. once i got to the bathroom i was lucky enough to be alone. i grabbed the pills from my pocket and got some water from the sink. i don't even remember how many pills i took. after i took them i continued my crying. it all turned into sobs. assuming josh heard me from the hallway, he ran into the bathroom. he asked me what was wrong and i told him everything. he made me throw everything up and stood beside me the whole time. he held my hair back and rubbed my back. he gave me his keys and told me to go back to his car. he found the class i was in and told my teacher what had happened. she immediately told him that it was completely fine and told him to wish me well. he took me to his house and we talked about it, he asked me out and that how we got to where we are today. josh saved my life.  i still have moments where i go back to my old way of solving my problems. josh helps me through everything. everyone is always telling me that he's to good for me and i offload to many of my problems onto him. i genuinely feel bad but i have nowhere else to turn to. 

we finished the cookies and we put them on a plate. i fixed us each a glass of milk and carried them to the living room. he sat down on the couch while i sat the milk on the coffee table. he grabbed my waist and pulled me onto his lap. i sat sideways and grabbed a cookie.

j- while you eat that, i just want to talk. i know i know, we go through the same routine when something like this happens but all i'm trying to do is help you. i don't know everything that happens in your head but i do know a lot about you. i feel like i know what this is about but i still need you to tell me. i know you don't like talking about it but all i want is for you to try your best.

he says while rubbing his hand up and down my legs. i look down for a moment and grab his hand. i lean against him and fidget with his fingers.

j- it's ok baby, just try your best

c- i just want to say sorry

j- for what?

he questions

c- for this. i feel like we go through the same thing over and over and over again and it never seems to get better.

j- it will never matter how much we go through this. we can go through this as many times as it takes. 

c- i-it's my parents again

j- that's a good start. can you tell me a little bit more

c- well, it's not as elaborate this time. it was simply just stress and anger. i feel like i can never escape the fighting. it follows me everywhere and i feel like i'm suffocating when i can hear it. i'm so over everything and i just needed to escape.

j- i'm so very proud of you

c- what for? there is nothing to be proud of

i say quietly

j- there is plenty to be proud of. first that was the longest you have gone without cutting yourself. around 3 months actually. second it didn't take very long to open up about it this time. and lastly, it was something that i can fix. i've been meaning to tell you this but i actually bought us a house. i felt like it was not only time but also it would help you in so many ways. we move in a few weeks from now but i think it was finally the right time to tell you.

he said

c- i don't know what to say

j- you don't have to say anything

he said while leaning in to kiss me passionately.

j- also i have something to show you real fast.

i gently picked me up and set me on the couch and then ran off to the kitchen. he came back moments later with a bowl with an ice cube in it and red food dye. he sat down and motioned for me to come over. i stood up and sat in his lap sideways as i did before.

j- of so i saw this on tiktok and i think it might help you.

c- ok..

j- you you take red food dye and put it on the ice cube. and then you rub it on your skin. like this.

he takes the ice cube and rubs the end across my thigh

j- it supposed to feel like a blade and look like blood. it's a much more healthier way and of you choose to use it great if not, that's fine too. all i know is that whatever happens we will work through together.

i wrapped my arms around him and buried my head in his neck.

c- thank you josh. you really did save my life..

thank y'all so much for the patience. i got logged out and had some issues. and yes this did happen again don't question it. if you have any requests please let me know. alsoooo if you have any other story ideas that you want me to do please let me know. i'm dying to do something other than imagines but i don't know what to do. last thing. i am going on vacation soon but this one is only like 5 days so if you send me any requests before i leave, they will be done before i leave so yea that's all i had to say!