( Bang Chan + Lee Felix )
❝Nobody can know about this pregnancy.❞
┈┈ mistopher | 2021 ++
To Bang Chan, being in the spotlight was never easy, no matter how glamorous his life looks up on stage. And his already suffocating backstage pressure could on...
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⇒ Sunshine Apartments 9:30am
The air seemed dense outside of Seungmin's apartment. Felix was pacing a small section in front of the closed door while Hyunjin, on the other hand, only stood stagnantly to the side to give the boy as much needed space. After all, that really was a big step that Felix was about to take; coming clean to his dear, unexplainably distant friend like that.
With the deepest sigh heaving his chest, Felix finally halted his steps. His face was contorted into an expression of skepticism and even slight fear as tears brimmed to the corners of his eyes. And Hyunjin couldn't help but step closer to hug his boyfriend, carefully though, to ensure that he'd no way discomfort the four-month baby bump.
"You ready, Lix? There's nothing to be scared of. He is your best friend, and even though he's been distant for a while now, it doesn't mean that he does not love you." Hyunjin spoke softly, the small smile lighting up his face as well the light peck to Felix's cheek drawing the younger's own lips up a bit. "And who knows? Maybe a news like this is what he's been missing to, you know, stop being homophobic."
And at that, a short giggle from them both somewhat eased the tension in the empty hallway, and Felix couldn't keep back the urge to lean forward and kiss his lover's lips. The emotion had grown, whenever they shared such intimate moments and kisses. It was no longer one heart that would flutter, and it wasn't only one mind that would be solely focussed on the other.
Felix was finally in. Maybe not love but, a stronger- deeper level of like. When those adoring eyes would gaze down on him, and those cheeks would coat themselves in pink because of him, and when that warm body would console him... he couldn't help it. He couldn't help but begin to fall for the one man that truly cared about him.
It was as if his fantasy was finally coming to life... Like in the beginning? When he had purposefully made himself vulnerable to accept anyone who claimed to love him and his body? Vulnerable to accept anyone who was willing to build a family with his somatic blessing? Felix could not help it.
Yes, maybeChan was indeed a mistake but, maybe Felix needed that mistake for an angel-like being such as Hyunjin to come into his life. Hwang Hyunjin. He adored him. He looked up to him both figuratively and physically... he could trust him and... he could genuinely work on himself to love him in his own timing...
In other words, Felix could most probably, unproblematically savor the remaining bits of feelings that he had bred for his first lover for as long as he wanted- for as long as he needed- as long as no changes were made and, as long as Chan kept up with that same inconsiderate attitude. As long as such terms were kept unchanged then definitely- definitely, Felix would love him. Felix would love Hyunjin.
