Hidden Feelings Book 1 (Poetry) (Journaling)

I hope your happy now

Why don't you want me
I don't care anymore
I just wish to be set free
I don't wish to be locked away forever

I want to be anywhere but here
You never seem to notice how much your hurting me
You only seem to see how much you'd lose if you lost me
So you hurt me and use me behind the scenes

I wanna die more than anything
But all you seem to see is a child feeling sorry for herself
I just wanted my mommy like all the other girls
But I can never miss you because I never had you

I just wanted a family like all the others
So why is it that all my monsters live outside my door
I thought you would be their to protect me from all my demons
I never thought you'd end up becoming those same demons I run from

Why are all the other boys and girls happy with their families
But I can never even get your approval or love
I just wish I had a home to go to when I was afraid
And loving parents who want and cherish me

So why was I stuck with no one
All alone in this cruel world
I can't even understand what I did wrong
All I know is that you said your happier in life without me around

I just wanted to be good enough for you to be proud of me
So why do I have to be compared with everyone before you talk to me
Why do you hurt me and hate me so much
I don't understand what's  so wrong with me

I just wished for you guys to love me cherish me and want me
So why do you seem to despise me so much
Why am I being compared to everyone
Yet I am still not good enough for you guys

I just wanted someone to show me that I'm worth it
That life is worth living and I should stay
I needed any reason to stay but you only give me more reasons to leave
So I hope you'll be happy once I'm finally gone
I just hope your happy now
Hope your happy now mommy and daddy