Hidden Feelings Book 1 (Poetry) (Journaling)

Journal Entry 33

How I'm treated at work is no different from how I'm treated at home. I mess up at work I'm the one being yelled at and scolded even if its not my fault, because you only ever see my mistakes and never what good I do and bring for your business. You treat me no differently than how I am treated at home, as a piece of sh*t who does nothing but make mistakes which is not true. I mean honestly I work at Dunk'in donuts, and you tell me that if something says just an original coffee any size and doesn't say how much cream or sugar or if its black then its more than likely a mess up so ask the person who rung it up to make sure. And I do that every time because I value my job and my customers like I'm supposed to as a Dunk'in employee but you guys are always in a bad mood because you had to wake up early and come to work when you didn't wanna so you take it out on me or that's how it feels when you guys have such bad attitudes with me for just doing what you told me to do. Also whenever we have a walk in order or front counter or even an online order you tell me don't make them wait to long. So I ask if you have their food yet and you yell at me like I've asked you 5 times when that was the first time I asked you and then you say your making it when someone else asks but forget about it later on so they end up waiting almost an hour and yet you blame me saying it was all my fault. Then you guys talk about me behind my back but I can somehow still hear you and whenever someone needs to clean the lobby and you guys are to lazy to do it you volunteer me and you sometimes do that because you want me off the line saying how I'm slow or annoying and I do to much or I'm behind. But truth be told I am just trying to do my job how I was told to do my job and you guys are the indecisive ones not me. I just wish you guys would make up your minds on how you want me to work and what kind of work you want me to do. I am treated as nothing but a nuisance and an annoying child at home who gets beaten for her mistakes but is invisible when it comes to her accomplishments that someone else gets to take credit for. All I am is seen for my mistakes but never what I accomplish, yet somehow my sister or older brothers make a mistake their told it wasn't their fault and they will get better and figure it out. As for me I am told 'how could you!' 'I am so ashamed of you why do you do nothing but mess things up!!'. The way I am treated at home is no different from how I am treated at work and it hurts none the less because you guys are hurting me, stressing me out, blaming me for things I never did, and you are doing nothing but pushing me to my limit. Because I almost broke down at work today from what they said to me but at least the customers who don't work with me, but only come by often, help me they treat me so nice and care about me even though they hardly even know me and they can see how much I am suffering. My one customer who comes in daily well, he could see how sad I was behind my smile and he could see that I was stressed and needed a break. Yet the people I work with three days a week couldn't see how much they were hurting me or stressing me out. Well maybe one employee, she comes in when I get off and she is always so happy no matter what she always sees the good in every bad situation and in every bad person and their intentions.