Hidden Feelings Book 1 (Poetry) (Journaling)

Will You even Notice?

I wrote this because my ex-lover had the worst communication skills and I kinda felt invisible around him sometimes.
So I guess this is Dedicated To: Taylor

Will you even notice when I'm no longer here
Will you even feel it once I'm gone
Will you even hear it when I leave
I don't think you will because I've been gone all along

I knew I could never love you guy's to much
I knew I could never hope for him to much
And I knew I could never once again trust everything everyone said to much
Because all that to much will hurt me so much more than before

You guy's never seemed to notice how much you hurt me
What you said seemed so innocent to yourselves
But behind those good intentions was all that unintentional pain
And as unintentional as it was it hurt none the less you know

I mean I want something real from you
So why do you not put in enough effort like I do
You say how much you love me
But now I'm starting to find that hard to believe

I don't mean to be mean I just want more than what I'm getting
You seem to think your giving me all I deserve but your not even close
I know you love me but the same goes for me so when I hurt you I'm hurting me too
Also I don't think you understand just how long I've been waiting to find someone

I've been waiting my whole life despite what the adults think
You came along just when I needed someone but now your gone
I guess I was being to much for you right otherwise why would you leave
You said that you loved me and I told you I am willing to give you all of me

I had opened up and given you my heart and soul
But all you did was say thank you for telling me
What am I supposed to do with a thanks and no I love you
You say you love me

I don't even understand the meaning behind those three words
But I know it's supposed to be more than a thanks
I love you so much that's why I can't risk a broken heart cuz of you
I wish I could read your mind this relationship would be so much easier