My Safe Haven (BxB)

Chapter XL - Tension, Sexual Tension

Andrew's POV – 30 September 2019

Guilt does not even begin to describe the emotion that surges through my bones as I wrap my arms around the sobbing figure that is Christian. If only I had checked my surroundings before blabbing on and on to Johnny about the fact that someone had tempered with the brakes of his car, his sister would still be here. Speaking of which, Johnny is probably gonna have my head for not calling him back, but that's the least of my worries right now.

Truth of the matter is, I had my entire attention focused on the boy in my arms right now, Christian King. A boy that I did not like one bit because he had this mysterious aura around him. A boy that always kept to himself that it bothered me so much, always poise and always in check of his emotions. A boy that rarely smiled, barely talked and yet, here we stand, in his kitchen, with his tears soaking my shirt, and I cannot help but be overwhelmed by how things have changed.

I moved from being the most popular guy in school, to being yet another face in the crowd. Moved from having all the possessions one could ever wish for, to having absolutely nothing. A lot of people would say, I once had the world at the palm of my hands, but I say I have my arms wrapped around my world. I mean, I've lost it all, literally...but I'm the happiest I've ever been in my life and that's all that matters.

However, I'm not the only one that's been subjected to this change. My quote-on-quote 'world', also had to undergo a lot of change. For the first time in his life, Ian was forced to open up to someone. For the first time in his life, he was forced to let someone in. He was forced to break all the walls that he built around his heart as a form of protection, and let someone show him love...let me show him love, and I couldn't be happier that he chose me to open up to.

Don't ruin it, my subconscious warns, and I can't help but scoff at my thoughts. I'd be a dumbass if I let myself ruin what we have, again. I had made a promise to Christian to always be by his side, and I was going to keep it for as long as he wants me to be his.

My train of thought gets interrupted by Christian untangling himself from my grip, and staring at the ground in what I would describe as embarrassment. "I'm sorry for crying...again" he says, wiping his eyes roughly.

"No, it's okay Ia-"

"It's not okay Andrew" he expresses with a sigh. "I'm supposed to be the one that's the strongest..."

"And who said that?" I question abruptly.

"No one said that" he states lowly. "It's always been like that. I've always been the strongest in my family...I've always been the guy that gives people strength, and now..." he sniffles "...I'm crumbling."

"And that's the issue Ian" I start, and place my hand on his shoulder comfortingly. "You've always been the warrior in your family, and you believe you can't show your emotions because that will make you seem weak, right?"

He continues to stare at the ground before giving me a curt nod.

"But a warrior is allowed an opportunity to be vulnerable. A warrior is allowed an opportunity to cry, and express their pain and fear...so stop feeling horrible for showing your emotions."

"I just hate feeling weak...I don't want to be weak" he says, staring straight at me.

"Ian, I told you that I'll always be here for you. What that means is that you can cry all you want, when you have me around I-I" I stammer, and contemplate saying my next words. Well, it's not gonna hurt saying this so fuck it "I'll be strong for the both of us."

And as soon as my words leave my mouth, I see the change in Christian's facial expression. From devastation to utter happiness, with hints of mischief. Oh what did I get myself into?

"Oh and who knew you could be so cute?" he asks with a smirk, and I feel heat rise to my cheeks.

"Stop it Christian" I warn, but my warning seems to drive his teasing streak.

"Goodness you're such a cutie pie" he says, pinching my cheeks. "Such a munchkin. A sweetheart..."

"Stop it Christian!" I yell with a massive smile on my face.

"You're saying I should stop yet your face is saying a different story" he laughs.

"Fuck you" I flip him the finger, laughing with him before he turns serious.

"After fucking you right?"

"What?" I question, utterly confused. What does he mean? I ponder, before taking his words into context...oh no.

"What the fuck Ian?" I ask, and push him playfully. "Why do you always have to be so dirty?"

"If I'm so dirty, then why is your buddy down there so prominent?" Bad timing for a boner, very bad timing. "Aww, don't be shy Baby, you're not the only one..." Christian says, gesturing to his own package. Oh my goodness, he is so big. I try to avert my gaze from his shaft but my eyes always found their way back to it. It looks so pretty behind the confines of his pants, and I can't help but swallow at the imagination of how it may look without the pants, or the underwear.

I continue to swallow as more pictures flash in my eyes. How would it feel in my hand? How would it feel in my mouth? How would it feel hitting the back of my throat? I bite my lip and shake my head as an attempt to rid my mind of these dirty thoughts...

"If you don't stop biting your lip like that, I'm gonna have to take you right here..." he pauses, and takes a step closer "...right now," and I swallow thickly at that. Why am I not freaked out by his words? Why don't I have a fiber in my body that wants to fight the idea of him taking me? Maybe because you want this as much as he does, that stupid voice at the back of my head chirps in. Fuck, I want him...

"Hey Andie" he calls out.

"Ye-yeah?"

"I can tell that you're thinking about what I just said. I just want you to be entirely sure about doing anything more than just kissing, so I'm not going to take you..."

I release a breath I didn't realize I was holding.

"...yet" Christian adds, shooting me that smirk of his that made my knees weak, before he walks off.

God, what have I got myself into?

*****

Hello Lovelies.

I'd first like to apologize for my delayed updates lately. I'm heading back to college in a few days, so I've been focused mainly on that. To top things off, I got the COVID-19 vaccine and it's taken a toll on my body, but I'm better now.

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