All I Ask [A Bensler Fan Fic]

Chapter Two

Olivia walked out of the kitchen with two mugs of tea and frowned when she noticed Elliot was crying.

"Do you want some privacy?" Olivia asked as she passed Elliot a mug before settling down beside him.

"N-no... I'm sorry for crying. I just hate being away from Eli." Elliot replied gruffly as he wiped the tears from his cheeks.

"This won't last forever. You start therapy tomorrow and-"

"Liv, do you honestly think that Kathy wants to go to therapy with me anymore? I cheated on her, and to make it worse... I slept with you, of all people." Elliot grumbled. 

Olivia closed her eyes tightly before standing and turning to look at Elliot.

"I am going to bed before you say shitty things about me. I'll see you in the morning, probably around six, when my morning sickness kicks in." Olivia sighed.

Elliot frowned when he heard Olivia's door closed, and he hated himself for what he said. At the moment, he regretted having an affair, but he didn't regret who he had one with.

Elliot stood slowly before walking over and opening Olivia's door slowly.

"Liv." He breathed.

"What do you want now?" Olivia grumbled as she turned to Elliot.

"I didn't mean to take my anger out on you, Olivia. I just wish that Kathy never had to find out." Elliot spoke, and then realized that it still sounded bad. Especially since Kathy may never have found out if Olivia didn't get pregnant.

"Get out, Elliot. Because if you say one more shitty thing, then I'm going to punch you. Go."

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Elliot was awake all night, and he listened to Olivia toss and turn. At six on the dot, Elliot heard as Olivia rolled out of bed, and a few moments later she was getting sick. 

"Don't fight it." Elliot spoke as walked into the bathroom and moved to where Olivia kneeled.

"I don't want you seeing me like this, Elliot. Just go." Olivia grumbled, before getting sick again. Elliot frowned as he squatted down behind Olivia and pulled her messy hair away from her face.

"You need me right now. You have been doing this alone, and I won't let you be alone anymore. So just let me hold your hair and get you water when you are ready."

Elliot did what he said he'd do. He sat behind Olivia for about an hour before starting the shower for her and making her toast for breakfast.

"You are probably disgusted by me now." Olivia frowned as she came into the kitchen in her work clothes.

"Kathy had morning sickness with all the kids. I used to sit in the bathroom and support her, just like I was supporting you." Elliot replied gently.

Olivia didn't know what to say, so she just sat down and sipped her tea and ate the dry toast that Elliot made for her.

"So, can I try to make things better?"

"Huh?" Olivia asked, as she breathed slowly.

"Last night, I wished that Kathy never had to find out about our affair. I knew the way it sounded the moment it came out of my mouth, and I didn't mean it to sound like that. I'm just going through a lot of crap, especially since I don't know how often I'll be able to see Eli. Or if my older kids will even want to see me after they found out I cheated." 

"If you are so scared about that, then walk out of here right now and tell Kathy about how you feel. Make sure she knows you want nothing to do with me, and that might change things."

"I'm not letting you do this alone, Liv. I wanted to sleep with you, just as much as you wanted to sleep with me. We created this baby together, and I want to raise it with you. If that is okay..." Elliot trailed off as his phone rang.

"Get that, El. I'm going to get my boots on and head to work. Just lock up." 

Olivia left the kitchen as Elliot hesitantly answered his phone.

"Hey, Kathy." Elliot breathed.

"Meet me at the therapist's office tonight. I'm not letting your affair ruin this marriage. I have put up with too much shit over the last twenty-two years to let this just end. If you don't show up, then I'm requesting a divorce... and I promise to make your life a living hell."

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After Olivia got sick for an hour that morning, she was fine the rest of the day. She didn't talk about her pregnancy or the fact that Elliot was the father. All she did was focus on the case they had, and counting down the minutes until she could go home and sleep.

"Are you staying at my place tonight?" Olivia asked as she zipped up her jacket.

"Not tonight." Elliot replied plainly.

"Is Kathy letting you stay at home again?" Olivia questioned, and Elliot shrugged.

"Not exactly. We are going to therapy tonight, and I don't think it would be good for me to go back to your place afterwards."

"Yeah, she probably wouldn't be happy with that. I hope that the therapy session goes well, and that you and Kathy can stay together."

"Liv-"

"Don't worry, Elliot. Remember, it never happened."

Olivia went into the locker room so Elliot couldn't ask to walk her down, and when she walked out again, Casey was waiting at her desk.

"Benson!"

"Novak, what are you doing here?" Olivia asked.

"I wanted to know if you'd join me for drinks and dinner tonight. A girls' night." Casey smiled, and Olivia nodded.

"Sure, but can we get take out and go back to my place?"

"Of course! Let's order and head out."

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Casey walked out of Olivia's kitchen with two glasses of wine in her hand. Olivia was sitting on the floor next to her coffee table as she spread out the food they had gotten.

"Alright, here you go." Casey smiled as she passed the glass to Olivia.

"Oh, I'm not drinking tonight. Just use mine as a refill." Olivia breathed.

"Why aren't you drinking? Did you get hung over last night?"

"Casey, I'm not drinking because my affair with Elliot led to me getting pregnant. That is why."