Bucky Barnes imagines

Family of Three, Part 1

A/N: If you didn't pick up from the title... this is the beginning of a pregnancy series that I have thought about starting for a little while now! Not quite sure how long it will be yet, but it should consist of at least three or four parts (rough estimate). Anyway, I hope you all enjoy it!

-M <3

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The chirp of my alarm going off on my phone startled me from my haze, letting fear sink into my chest once again. Not long after rising to my feet from my place on my bed, a wave of nausea hit me like a truck. A deep breath seeped from my lungs before I entered the bathroom, approaching the sink to find the little plastic device sitting on top of a piece of toilet paper.

A stupid piece of plastic that would determine whether or not my life would be changed forever. Somehow, that thought did not make my stomach feel any better and my hands clasped onto the edges of the counter, breathing out silent prayers that I did not vomit all over the freshly cleaned bathroom.

Taking a few moments to calm my nerves, I finally reached down and grabbed the pregnancy test. My eyes focused on the small screen, my heart coming to a complete stop as I read the result.

Pregnant.

Thankfully, I made it to the toilet in time. My eyes burned with tears as I pulled away from the bowl after I had finished emptying my lunch into it. My body slumped against the wall opposite of the sink, unable to find the energy to even move to the connected bedroom.

The plastic test was still gripped in my fingers and I looked down once more, half hoping that I misread the test. It was a fairly small screen, and my vision was not perfect. But the eight familiar black letters glared back at me, almost taunting me as my tears finally broke free.

In all of our years together, Bucky and I had only ever talked about having children once. It was a brief and rather sad conversation. After all the years that he had been with HYDRA, injecting him with substances that even he didn't know of, Bucky had no hope that he could ever have offspring of his own. The pain in his eyes when telling me nearly split my heart into two.

We sat quietly in our bed for the rest of that day, holding each other in silence before he spoke again, gently tipping my head up to look at him. "You are the only family I will ever need, Y/N Barnes. I'm lucky enough as it is to have married a woman like you. I could not imagine that life could get any better than this."

And after that day, we did not talk about having children again. And life went on as it always had. We truly had no idea if we could ever have biological kids of our own, but it was okay. A family of two was enough for me, and it was for my dear husband. But, I suppose the universe had other plans for us.

I finally found the energy to stand up after God knows how much time, and I stared at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes were rimmed red with tears, my hair standing in a million different directions and my lips trembling as I held back the sobs that desperately wanted to escape from my chest. I could hardly recognize the woman staring back at me through the glass.

I had never been more terrified than I was now, mere seconds from shattering to pieces. The idea of having children was not all that scared me, but I could not imagine how Bucky would feel once he found out. What would he even say?

Somehow, I found myself back in my bed, curling up in the sheets. I gently placed the pregnancy test on my nightstand, turning back to it in an effort to try to ignore the unexpected surprise that awaited me after my alarm went off earlier today.

Tears dripped onto my pillowcase and I squeezed my eyes shut in an effort to stop them. I let myself drift to a restless sleep, unable to find comfort in a bed that I only had good memories in.