Bucky Barnes imagines

Careless

Y/N's POV

It had been two weeks since he broke up with me, and to say the least, they had been hard. I tried my hardest to keep myself distracted from all of my emotions.

After much convincing from my friends, I finally pulled myself from my work at home, and went out by myself for a change of scenery.

I sat down outside at a table that was part of a small cafe. After glancing at the menu, I ordered a lemonade and an order of fries. As I began to sip on my lemonade, I glanced up to see that the Avengers Tower was in sight, and my heart immediately fell again. I sighed as the memories started to play again in my head.
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"You seem oblivious to everything, Y/N." Bucky snapped, his blue eyes focused on the floor as he paced in his room. He had just returned from a rather rough mission, and the moment I tried to talk to him, he immediately began to pick a fight.

"Tell me just what I'm oblivious to, Mr. Barnes." I looked up from my book as I lay on his bed, my irritation growing the more he paced. "And stop fucking pacing. You're making me nervous."

Bucky froze before walking over to stand a few feet from where I was sitting.

"You... You couldn't care less about my past. You don't care that HYDRA is trying to find me, using everything and everyone I care about as bait to draw me in. You don't care that you're life is at stake by just being with me. You. Are. Careless."

I threw my book to the side and stood up, my shorter frame inches away from his as I looked up at him angrily.

"You know why I don't care about your past? Because I love Bucky Barnes. Not the Winter Soldier, not the things you've done. I love the man you are now, Buck. "

"But you're fine with letting yourself get hurt for me? Dying so HYDRA can lure me in?" He snorted, barely taking in the words that I had just spoken.

"I don't want to die, obviously." I sighed, as I looked at him. "But I know the risks that come with loving you. And they are worth it, Buck. I'm a Y/A year old woman. I can take care of myself. And I have you to keep me safe, if I need you to."

"No." Bucky shook his head slowly as he looked at me. "I can't do this. I can't watch you carelessly put yourself first. I get that it may seem like a heroic act, putting your boyfriend above yourself, but it isn't to me. It's stupid."

"It's not stupid, if it's the man you love!" My voice rose in volume but he just rolled his eyes. "Stop doing that!"

"Doing what, doll?"

"Stop being so fucking rude, and listen to me!" My voice cracked slightly as I tried to hide my tears, but I didn't stop speaking. "Bucky, I love you. And I know what HYDRA can do. But you're worth it. And I don't want that to be the reason you don't want me around anymore."

"Well... I don't want to be with you anymore." His voice was cold, and my heart dropped to the floor and shattered at his words. "I don't. I won't have another death on my conscious because you want to love me. And frankly, doll... it's' time to let this go, anyway."

"Don't do this." I whispered bleakly, searching his eyes for any emotion, any sign that this was one big misunderstanding, a nightmare. But all I could see was coldness in his blue eyes, and I knew that it was done.

It was over.

"I think you should go." Bucky muttered, taking a step back. I nod silently, before getting up and walking out of the room, slamming the door shut behind me.