Bucky Barnes imagines

Forgive Me, Pt. 3

A/N: This request for a third part was from AGES ago, so I'm excited to finally post it!  Anyway, this series will definitely be getting a Part 4. I couldn't stop writing and coming up with more ideas lol. I hope you all enjoy!
-M <3
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"Hate" had always been such a harsh word to me.  Of all the feelings that existed, that was the one that I never could seem to grasp fully. Perhaps my heart was too soft or my nature too forgiving, but I had yet to find a person that I truly hated.

I could not even find it in me to hate Steve Rogers, despite all that had happened. Forgiveness was still a work in progress, but perhaps one day I would forgive him completely.

It had been three months since Bucky had found me in our bathroom with an open medication bottle in my hand, and it had been equally as long since he had spoken to the rest of the team. While I found it impossible to hate any of them, Bucky could not stand to even look at them. We had moved out of the compound within twenty four hours of his confrontation with Steve and hadn't been back since.

Our little apartment in the city was comfortable, but it was not home. I knew that Bucky felt the same, but he refused to admit it out loud. Several attempts to urge him to reach out to Steve had not gone well, and my heart ached as I witnessed his anger consume him. Bucky had reassured me that I was all he needed now, but I knew deep down that he needed his friends, especially Steve.  This anger would destroy him if not confronted properly.

And that was why I reached out first.

I found myself in a quiet little cafe in the city on a early Tuesday morning, sipping on an iced late  as I watched people make their way down the street to work. The chair across from me scrapped on the ground, and I looked up to find Steve Rogers taking a seat. His face was solemn, almost shameful as his eyes made contact with mine. It was a version of him that I was unfamiliar with.  The weeks of sneering and secret glares had melted away into shame and regret.

Part of me thought I should be content, seeing him humbled in this way. But I could not find it in me to rejoice in this. Steve Rogers was doing just as bad as Bucky was, losing his best friend the way that he had. There had to be a way to remedy this.

"Good morning, Steve." I spoke softly, watching him evenly.

"Good morning." Steve nodded in response, looking a little uneasy. "Look, Y/N-"

"You know why I asked to meet with you." I prompted, pushing past the need for small talk to get into what really mattered. I was also quite honestly not ready to accept his apology either, if that was what he trying to do.

"Yeah." He sighed, looking away briefly. "I don't know what else I can do. Bucky won't respond to any of my messages and I wouldn't dare show up uninvited to your apartment."

"That would not have gone well." I agreed, sipping again on my beverage. "But we need to fix this, Steve. I've never seen him like this before. He needs you."

"No, he needs you." Steve replied, his voice remaining even. "And I realize that now. I didn't know how much he cared for you until that night. Hell, I'm surprised he didn't tell me that you two got married."

"That really surprised you?" I asked with a slight scoff. "After how you all treated me?"

"I'm not looking for a fight." He held up his hands slightly. "I'm just wanting to fix things."

It was silent for a moment, and I let out a small sigh as I nodded in agreement. We were both in agreement for at least this one thing. While I did care for Steve and the others like family before this mess, all I cared about now was making sure Bucky was cared for and supported. In order to do so, we had to work together.