My Missing Doctor

24.Henrik

"It's quiet. The voices... They stopped." He pulled both our hands up moving them about as he stared with child-like intrigue. "It all went quiet when you..." He narrowed his eyes and glanced over at me. "You kissed Caleb." I started to move my hand away when he squeezed them tighter causing me to freeze. "Why?"

"Anti..."

"Not now Dark. I'm asking Henrik a question." My eyes went wide and I couldn't help but smile. He remembered my name. He... He remembered what I did. "Why did you kiss him, Henrik?"

"I-I didn't... He kissed me." He looked away and I frowned once again trying to pull my hand away and he just kept holding tight.

"You... You don't understand. You've never understood." His voice cracked and I froze. He let go of my hand and visibly winced as if the simple act of letting go caused him some pain. I just frowned and sat beside him on the couch. "It hurt, Henrik. Seeing that... Sam he... He tried to stop me but... I don't know. It's still all blurry." I glanced over at Will who just shrugged. Great... Maybe next time don't mess with his head. He's already got enough going on. "I..." He sucked in a shaky breath moving to cover his ears again and I froze. "I snapped right? I think... I must have. That must be why Jack was scared... W-Why JJ was worried?" I looked around to see everyone watching with a solemn expression and I frowned. "I left... But I didn't come home. I..." His eyes narrowed and he started to growl making everyone get a little anxious. "Those hick shit fuck faces from before..." His eyes got a little crazy looking before glancing up at will. "I didn't hurt them TOO badly did I? Even if they deserved it. Those fucking kids... they deserved a royal ass kick..." His eyes went wide and I could see the question clear as day. So could everyone else.

"They're all at the hospital, I imagine." Anti jumped up and Will laughed.

"Th-The boys too?" Will nodded and Anti's face went white. That's when Wilford realized what Anti meant.

"Oh, dear boy. No... It was not your fault. All you did was lock them in a room. I had to make sure none of them could rat to the police about a certain glitch attacking their parents. By now they should be waking up from a very nice and long nap." Will laughed again as Anti sat back down on the couch looking more than a little relieved.

'Is this the same...' JJ started and Anti nodded before he could even finish.

"ABOUT FUCKING TIME!" Chase yelled out causing Anti to flinch. Chase was holding the bottle that had fallen again but it was practically completely gone by now... all of what was missing now at his feet. "Those fuckers deserved a little pain." Anti just shook his head.

"No one deserves to suffer, Chase." He hugged himself tightly as his eyes flashed. "Especially at my hands. I tend... I tend to take my time." He shivered a little before picking his feet up. "At least with Will, it's fast... ish." He started to slip into his head and I couldn't help but worry. "God... I really am horrible." He started to laugh this broken laugh staring blankly at the floor and I freaked. I took his hand again... Or well I tried. I ended up with a knife to the throat. It was for only a split second though cause Anti's eyes went wide in shock as he dropped it like it had burned him and glitched away from me. "I... I'm sorry. I-I don't... I don't know why... Damn it." He fell to his knees and I sighed walking over to where he had curled himself up and just sat there in front of him. "H-Henrik..."

"I'm right here. I'm not leaving." He slowly started to shake again and I reached out placing a gentle hand on his. He just tensed up this time. "I'm never going to leave you again, Anti. Ich werde niemals von deiner Seite weichen, egal was passiert. Remember?" He slowly looked up at me with tears in his eyes and a frown on his face. I simply gave him a sad smile. (I'll never leave your side, no matter what.)

"You've promised that before." I looked away and he frowned even more. "And you've broken it too. Haven't you?"

"I see we've found something you still can't remember." Anti looked at the ground lost in thought and I sighed. "That would explain why you aren't trying to kill me right now..."

"I couldn't kill you. I lo..." He froze up staring at my shirt and I sighed. He reached out letting his fingers graze the blood-soaked clothes and his eyes narrowed. "I snapped." He took a deep breath and sighed. "I don't understand. As much as seeing you kiss Caleb would have killed me... I never would've attacked you. So why..."

"You were already breaking. The event at the store..." Anti shook his head and Chase clammed up in confusion.

"It wouldn't matter how fucked up I was at the time, I never would have..." He looked me in the eyes and I could see the pain in them. "What did you do? What don't I remember?"

"Anti, I don't think..." Jack started but I just cut him off with a smile.

"I broke my promise, Anti. I left you. I thought... I thought I wasn't helping you. I thought I was just making it worse." His eyes went wide as I moved till I was sitting properly on the ground. Funny... He had to lose his memories just so that we could have this conversation. "You told me you felt like we thought you were fragile... That I... That I thought you were weak. I could never think that. You're the strongest I've ever met."

"I don't..."

"I thought I was making it harder for you to fight your insanity." He laughed a bit and I frowned.

"Harder... Henrik, you're the only one that makes it better. You're the only reason I was able to stop..." His eyes narrowed again before he smiled. "I heard you. Twice. Telling me it was ok... that I could fall back. That I was safe. That... I didn't have to hurt them."

"But I never..." I froze seeing the smile on his face and I sighed. "I'm sorry. I really am. It must have been hell. I just... I thought I was making it worse. I just wanted you to..."

"I'm ok, Henrik."