Waiting

13

"What's wrong?" asked Fred, noticing my agonizing face. I stared at my pizza for a few heated seconds. Yep, I was having a heated stare down with my cold pizza.

"I'm going to the main lounge to use the microwave" I muttered, my eyes still focused on the pizza. Without hesistation, I robotically picked up the tray and left the room. From behind I could hear Fred saying "damn, I need some of that." It was pretty clear that he was referring to my pizza. Right? Well I think so, especially considering the fact that he devoured his in 3 minutes.

As I made my way to the lounge, I couldn't help but overhear whispers from around the hall. What an old cliché, the whole talking about people shit. I wasn't gonna act all grown up, but it felt like I was currently trapped in a hall full of kindergarteners.

"Here comes the depressed whore" said one of the many voices amongst the little crowd I was hurdling over. I continued walking in silence, despite the raging murmurs like 'is that really her' or 'what's she doing here'. Like seriously bruh, the struggle not to smack a bitch.

I was able to safely arrive to the lounge without getting caught. And thankfully, my pizza was still in great condition. I opened the microwave oven quietly, trying my best not to get caught. The second I closed the door, I heard a shriek from the back of the room. I jumped in fear, almost passing out.

"What the hell are you doing here?!!" Adam cried out, holding on to a file stocked with papers. I tried to control my over beating pulse. When I did, I went over to Adam and unexpectedly slapped him. Oops, guess my angry bird syndrome got the best of me.

"What the hell are you doing here" I said, completely matching his tone. He quickly put the file under the desk and looked at me, puzzled. I could notice his cheek becoming red from my slap, and he rubbed it furiously.

"Ouch" he mumbled angrily. "I asked you first. What are you here for." Adam sat down on the desk chair, both of his arms on the desk leaning towards me. It was kinda like the look a principal gives you when you know you fucked up. Big time.

"I came here to microwave my pizza" I said, taking heavy breaths.

"But you know that no patients are allowed in the lounge" he said matter of factly.

"How ironic, coming from the guy sneaking through files in the same lounge as I am. Im actually surprised you remembered how to get here. Did you get lost on your way?"

Adam got up from his chair and walked towards the door. Ha! Once again, leaving whenever shit got too intense. Run riding hood, run!! I thought, chuckling to myself.

I was actually surprised to see him walk towards the microwave and take out my pizza. The old me would say that he was being sweet. The me I was now had the thoughts 'hell naw' going through me head over and over again. I don't know whether he was trying to be sweet or if this was just another mocking game.

That was one of the things I just couldn't stand about him. Even after the breakup, he stayed away from me. He was always quiet. I was cool with it, since I wasn't exactly the loud type either. He just distanced himself away from me, and when I finally got used to it, he pops up again out of nowhere. It was so frustrating dealing with the whole moving on act and dealing with my mental stability at the same time. And the thing about it was he acted like it was nothing. That he didn't hurt me, that it was just me that was acting crazy and paranoid.

I tried to blink away tears from the painful experiences while Adam was approaching me with my pizza. Here I was, about to have a meltdown in front of my ex while he was handing me my pizza. Not exactly normal if you ask me.

"Smells good" he said, waving the slice of pizza around me. His smirk grew wider as he saw me continuously try to bite the pizza like a shark preying on a clown fish. Hopefully not Nemo, he was a too good damn fish.

Like I said, not exactly normal to be thinking about Finding Nemo while trying to eat my pizza.

"Can I just get my pizza Adam? I really don't have time for you. To be honest, getting my slice of pizza from the microwave isn't really a good gesture into trying to get me in your life again. Only God knows what that file was for." I admitted. If he was suddenly trying to get my attention, there had to be a good cause.

"Now Tori, why would I have to do all of this just to get your attention?" He asked, placing the pizza on the desk.

I tried to look him straight in the eye, but my nose was in heaven right now. I broke eye contact for a second and took the pizza. I took a huge bite of it, before gesturing my hands for him to continue.

"Do you think I would honestly do so much just to get your attention again?" he asked, tilting his head. I took another bite of my pizza and placed it on the plate on the desk, before sitting on the desk and looking at him in disgust.

"Whatever game you think you're trying to play, you're losing miserably you idiot" I snarled.

"Do you think I'm an idiot?" Omg. Why does his every answer have to be a stupid irrelevant question? This shit was getting me tight, and I had to get back to Fred's room before he started becoming suspicious.

"Well obviously or else I wouldn't of called you one. Let me guess, did you forget that too?" Adam immediately opened his mouth in shock, no words coming out. But then he cocked his head, humor written all over his wide smirk.

"It takes an idiot to know an idiot" he said simply. Fuck. I sucked my teeth in annoyance. "Damn, even after all this time you still do nothing but suck."

"Um I'm sucking my teeth at you're annoying irrelevant ass."

"I'd figured that you would start sucking eventually. I mean, practice makes perfect" he winked. At this point I was beyond pissed.

"OMG WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME? YOU HATE ME AND ALREADY BROKE MY HEART AND NOW YOU'RE TRYING TO INTERFERE WITH MY LIFE AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN?!!!" I yelled in frustration. After he's put me through so much, what else does he want from me?

He looked up at me and held my hands. "I don't hate you. I know I've done some really hurtful things to you, but I don't hate-" his voice was interrupted by the sound of the door burst open.

"Tori what took you so-" his words came to a complete halt as soon as his eyes came across Adam. He then took his time to study me. This really didn't look good. Me crying in front of Adam. Fred was going to explode.

He was only doing it out of his good will. He didn't want to see me hurt, especially by the one person he hates for ruining my life.

And through all this bullshit I still couldn't fucking finish my pizza in peace. It had pepperoni and everything.