Waiting

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ADAM POV

I didn't even care at this point. I'm not gonna lie, Chris' speech was legit. I was just pissed that while everybody talking about how happy they are I'm still waiting for my turn. I been here the longest, and by now I'd think that I would have something more when in reality I just lost everything.

I got up and walked out of the room before everyone else did. I honestly needed some time to think about shit. When I first arrived at the hospital, I always used to sneak out to try to get away from reality. Back then I only had myself to rely on, and now I still do.

I went into my room and carried a few clothes along with my hover board before heading out of the hospital. The nurses at the front didn't even bother saying anything to me. I got on my hover board and began roaming on the streets before I got to my destination.

There was an awkward amount of silence before I knocked on the door.

"Hey Adam" she smiled.

You see, my ex's house would be a weird place to go to clear my head. But she was my first love, and she understood me more than anything. I ignored her and took a seat on her couch.

"You haven't changed a bit I see. You know everyone was wondering what happened with you when you disappeared a couple of years ago."

I continued to ignore her and turned on the tv. "I need your help Sam."

I turned to face her and she seemed a bit taken back by my seriousness.

"Look Adam, I'm trying right now. I love you and everything but you can't only come to me whenever you need help. I don't like being used."

Now I remember why I broke up with her. She was an annoying feisty one.

"Oh yeah like how you used me to get back at your ex boyfriend right? You know- forget it. I came because I'm having trouble with my girlfriend" I sighed.

She came and sat next to me on the couch. We did have a lot of chemistry and it would be nice to try our relationship again, but I had to figure out this mess with Tori first. I mean she made it clear that she wanted nothing to do with me, but I had to figure out if she was really worth fighting for.

"I love this girl named Tori but she doesn't want me anymore. I fucked up too many times and I don't know if I should move on and let her be or fight for her."

"Adam look. If she's got you all fucked up it's because she's jealous that you're better but she's not. But don't focus on her right now, I can show you something better" she said while sitting on me.

I had no intentions on letting it go this far, but I needed a stress reliever. My breathing got heavy when she started to slowly take off her clothes. Her body was banging, but Tori's is probably better.

"Stop thinking about her and just relax Adam. She's the one missing out" she smirked. She started to unbuckle my pants and that's when I knew I really fucked up. I didn't want this. Tori was all I ever wanted.

She got off me and got on her knees. If Tori finds out she'll be devastated. She keeps denying our love because she's scared to face it, but man I couldn't do this to her. I've done enough to her already.

"Nahh Sam, I ain't wit it" I mumbled. "I thought we could kick it like old times, and even you said you didn't want me to use you. You've been nothing but useless anyway."

Before she could answer I got up and was making my way to the door.

"Yo dick probably small anyway" she called out. "