Waiting

2

The rest of the day felt uneasy. I ignored everyone else and just decided to stay on the roof of the hospital. I didn't want to deal with anyone else, especially Adam. I took another gulp of the bottle of sprite in my hand. It's really fascinating how much you can manipulate the workers in here. Plus, there not really good at hiding stuff. It only took me five minutes to find a spare blade on one of the counters. After about half an hour of my drink/cut session, I heard the door from behind open. Adam appeared at my side instantly.

Great, were alone.

"What's that on your arm? It looks like a dark red" he said, staring at the place I had just cut. Great day to wear blue, I thought.

"Hey look it's snowing," I said, pointing to the light snow that suddenly began to fall. It was winter anyway.

Thank you Mother Nature

"Nope, just seems like the earth was a little too horny and cummed on us for revenge," he said, never breaking eye contact. I couldn't help but smile. He always did have a way with words.

"What is your problem anyway? I mean, you act happy yet at the same time you act alone."

"Everything," he said flatly. For a split second I thought he was kidding. But by the look on his face, I could tell he was serious.

"Look I didn't mean it like that, sheesh."

"Wow okay" he's said, as he sat next to me.

"Just out of curiosity, why are you suddenly now talking to people, especially me? I know that you must hate me and all for some reason, but you're actually happy."

He sighed at those last words, before quickly changing his expression to one of happiness.

" It's funny because it's actually easier being nice than being mean. I'm just saying, when I pretend to be happy people instantly believe it. It's easy to trick them. Looks like it's starting to work on you. But since you're the one asking questions, I might as well ask one of my own."

"Which is..."

"Why do you hurt yourself when there are other people who will do that for you?" I was about to quickly reply with something like 'that's only for me to know', but he beat me to it.

"Exactly. You can't answer because since your depressed or whatever, you already know how it feels to be hurt by someone else."

I clenched my jaw. He looked satisfied by my reaction. "Thanks Diego, I'm fascinated that you've done your research."

"I have actually thought about it a few times."

"Cutting?" I was surprised that a guy who manipulates people and hides more shit than a fucking treasure box would actually consider cutting.

"Don't you get it? I'm fucking antisocial. I don't like people. Look, I only pretended to act happy because it's easier than having people who think that I'm always sad and shit. It's easy for me to control my feelings because I instantly forget," he urged, now standing up. Well at least it triggered some kind of emotion.

Now, I know you'd probably expect me to apologize for getting him mad, but I honestly didn't give two shits at this point.

"Well then maybe mr. lonely can leave me alone and go back to fooling people. You don't like hurting yourself because it's easier for you to hurt other people" I shouted. I guess my meds for today didn't kick in yet. What startled me most was that he didn't seem at all affected by these words, he simply just shrugged and left.

More Sprite to myself, I thought. I wanted to immediately take out the blade, but something stopped me. Adam was right. I mean, he knew that I wasn't happy. The main difference between both of us is that he didn't show it and I did. I slipped the blade back into my pocket and made my way to the cafeteria. It was time for lunch, and I just had to fill Rose with my encounter.

"He is such a jackass" said Rose, biting her way into her burger. As comforting as her words were, this bitch was making me hungry.

"I know right" I said, my eye glued to that burger.

"Oh yeah, did you know that our families are gonna visit us tomorrow?" I shuddered at the word.

Mommy died two weeks before I got into the hospital, daddy disappeared before I was born. Only my brother Dave was there, and he stopped visiting me way long before.

"Sorry Tori, I completely forgot" she said.

"No I'm sorry that you never remembered" I said angrily. I got up from my chair and stormed into my room.

Hello blade, hope you're ready.

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As you can see, I'm getting there. I don't really wanna mention too much so early in the book, so I'll guess I'll just take baby steps. By the way most of the stuff in this book is real. Anyways, hope you enjoy. If you have any thoughts or suggestions feel free to comment below. Thanks my peoples