Waiting

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I slammed Dave's door open and ignored his frightening glare.

"Why did you lie to me you idiot?!!" I half yelled.

"What on earth do you think you're doing? I'm in the middle of relaxing and here you come slamming doors and shit. Not to mention you asking me dumb questions knowing I don't know what your talking about."

"Why didn't you tell me Jeremy was our father?"

He stayed silent.

"Don't play dumb. You're supposed to be my blood and you keep something this valuable away from me?"

No answer.

"SAY SOMETHING YOU FUCKING DUMBASS!!"

"It was for your own good. Jeremy was a violent man, and mom and I didn't want him in our lives but he always found us. We didn't want you to grow up knowing how horrible your real father was, so me and her had to start calling him Uncle.  He would only show up once in a while, to try to get back together with mom. Whenever she rejected him, he got violent. Once I met that Lenner guy I knew he wasn't good news. When I found out he was actually our dad I-I just didn't know how to tell you. That's why I stopped visiting you for a while. I couldn't handle it."

"Keeping a secret is like a bottle of gasoline. The longer you hide that bottle the more deadly it becomes. Secrets can help save a person. But just one easy twist of the bottle cap and you got yourself a fire. Secrets are lies. Lies equals pain."

I hated how people always think they know what's best for me. They don't see what I go through behind closed doors but wanna take credit when something good happens in my life, like they're the hero.

"Look if you really don't understand why I did what I did then I don't know what else to tell you Tori but I'm sorry I didn't let you know. You don't even have to deal with me anymore, I'm going to the army once I get out this hospital anyway."

"Why the fuck you lying?"

"I'm for real. I already know I'm fired from my job, and there isn't really nothing good going on for me here other than you of course. I also wanna prove that one arm can't stop me from doing whatever I want to. So yeah, once I fully recover, I'm out."

"You the only family I got left Dave. We been through so much shit. I know I may act bitchy to you from time to time, but you gotta realize we only have each other."

Other than Adam, Dave was all I had. He was my rock; he filled the huge gaps that mom left when she died. With Dave gone, ima be worried sick about if he's going to be okay. After all the stuff I've been through within the past 24 hours, this was the most emotional. I finally realized that everyone's place in my life was temporary. They all left me when I needed them most.

"Tori, you're really making this harder for me than it already is. Of course I'm going to miss you. Mom is going to watch over both of us, and I promise to keep contact with you every day. All my life everything I've done was for you and mom. This is the wake up call I needed to realize I can do something for me."

"I'm going to miss you as much as I miss mom. As long as you're happy, I'm happy. All I'm asking for is that you don't forget about me."

"I got you."

I couldn't even tell him bye because I knew I wasn't going to see him again for a long time. But what I did know was that I was stressing myself out from going to random people and dealing with their issues.