Waiting

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ADAM POV

So many questions filled my head. I sat on my bed, right next to Tori, waiting for him to step in. We have a lot of unfinished business to attend to.

"Adam, you have a visitor" said one of the nurses. I nodded and she paused before letting him step in.

"The fuck do you want," I snarled, not wanting to waste any time.

"Hey, you remember me now" he smiled, ignoring me and Tori. "I heard a few days ago you got your memory back. Now I wanted to fully explain to you-"

"Shut the fuck up" Tori snapped. I chuckled in my head. She took the words right out my mouth.

"You act like you miss him, when you've never showed up once after he was diagnosed. I barely know you, but from the way Adam's acting it doesn't take an Einstein to realize he doesn't want shit to do with you."

"Adam, you got another feisty slut with you. It's bad enough I had your whore for a mother to put up with. But my point is, I know you remember what happened."

The last I remember of my father was when I was 8. It was three days after my birthday when he did it.

"Why'd you do it dad? Why did you beat MY mother unconscious 3 days after my birthday?" I asked, fury growing in my voice. The haunting memory came back to me now. "Why did you lie, coming home drunk as always and yelling about how you would leave us if I had cancer? When mom tried to shut you up you beat her IN FRONT OF ME. You left me to grow up never knowing what a real father was like."

I slowly got up and started walking towards him, his fake smile aggravating me to the fullest.

Even Tori knew not to say anything to me. I was in my mode, and I had family business to deal with for a second.

"She knew..." He muttered. "She knew you was sick but was too scared that it would ruin our reputation" he whimpered. "She knew it, and when I found out I did some things that honestly I do regret. You didn't have to see me beat that worthless piece of shit."

I stepped forward and slapped him so hard blood spat out. "HOW DARE YOU FUCKING LIE IN MY FACE!! You've been a drunk ever since I was born. You think I'm that dumb to not remember. Three days after my birthday, you came back from your "business trip". She was mad that you got drunk and forgot my birthday, and when you said you'd leave us she got mad and you beat her in front of all of us."

I pulled his tie so that he was choking. "I felt suffocated all my life, and you never noticed" I cried. I punched him hard in his throat.

Tori quickly ran and pulled me off of him. "He'll never feel that sense of loneliness that you felt and nothing that you do is gonna change that." She said. I kicked him hard in the stomach and left. Shit, I didn't even know where to go. That was one of the most memorable things that scarred me, and that bastard better pay.

"Listen to that slut" he chuckled from my room."

I punched the nearest wall and sat down in frustration. Tori soon came and sat next to me. A pang of guilt immediately filled my chest.

"I'm sorry Tori, you shouldn't ever see me like that. I just lost control. I thought it would be nice to gain my memory back, but when he came he brought a wave of bad memories."

She was definitely tense, but I guess she understood where I was coming from and relaxed a bit. "I get it Adam, we both have deranged fathers who are sick. I'm here to pick you up at your worst, just like you did when it was my turn. Remember what you said, it's about having that person to help you get through it."

There were literally no words to describe how much love I had for this girl in front of me. Who knew she was the key to all of this all along. I know we just rekindled an old flame, but I learned a long time ago not to waste time with the ones you love most.

"Honestly Tori, you're so amazing I don't even know if I deserve you. I fucked up real bad for ever letting you feel hurt from me and feeling alone. I always keep fucking up Tori, I'm really scared. I don't want to make any dumb decisions to end up like my father." I pleaded.

She held my face and looked at me with a spark in her eyes that was so mesmerizing. "You can't fake love Adam. It's what kept me coming back to you every time you fucked up, but I know you're nothing like you're father. You never let go and fight for your love, and I love it so much about you. We don't have to be reckless or stupid, just as long as we have each other I need you to shut the fuck and don't second guess it. Got it?"

I smiled and let out a chuckle. "I got us Tori. C'mon let's get out of here and do something other than confine ourselves into this shit hole."

I pecked her lips and grabbed her hand. We snuck from the back of the hospitals and got on our hover boards, holding hands.

"Quick question, where the hell are we going?" She asked.

"You'll see" I smirked.

About ten minutes later, we arrived at our destination. It was the place I always used to go to whenever I snuck out of the hospital. I called it my mind spot 'cause I took time to think about any and everything that was on my mind.

We climbed up the hill and laid down side by side.

We proceeded to talk about our old lives and make twisted jokes about how we ended here.

After three hours, we got up and left. The fact that it was raining outside wasn't helping, but just looking at Tori made me feel so alive and happy.

I grabbed her hand. "I had a lot of fun today T. You know I love you." She gave me a half smile. I looked into her hazel eyes and took it as an opportunity to kiss her. I leaned forward but surprisingly, she stopped me.

"Adam I think I love you too, but I'm not ready to rush things so fast" she sighed.

"Why?" I asked confusingly, taking a step back. "Are you forgetting what happened this morning?"

"I'm sorry but you know I need to be independent at something. I relied on you too much in the past-"

"Yo shut the fuck up about that alright!!" I yelled louder than expected. "We all know I fucked up in the past but damn, you can't let me correct my mistakes?"

"Yes but you don't get it. I put so many things on hold for you and it seems like you're doing this because of your needs, not ours. It's like you're forcing this instead of letting it happen naturally. Remember I still need to know myself rather than force myself into this relationship."

"EXCUSE ME FOR TRYING THIS TIME!!! Excuse me for putting in all my effort this time to make the rest of your life worth living. Damn, no matter how hard I try you always get me so fucking frustrated Tori" I screamed, walking towards her. Since when was it bad to try and be a better man for her?

"This is why" she said softly. "You say you are nothing like Lenner when in reality you're acting like his twin. You both act really nice at first, saying whatever it'll take to please me. But when I start to act real with you, you get mad and become this angry guy I've never seen. You say you love me even with my mood swings and my constant mood change but you're just like everyone else. You don't get it. So I won't waste any of your time. Fuck you and fuck this" she growled.

She spat in my face before walking away furiously. I angrily punched the wall with all my force. The rain was pouring hard now, and I just watched my true love walk out of my life.

Again.