Waiting

40

A/N

We meet again lol. The song makes sense towards the end of the chapter. But yeah, happy reading folks.

TORI POV

It's been two months, 4 days, and 12 long hours since I've last talked to Adam. Of course he's tried to talk to me plenty of times, but I've ignored him. Honestly I don't regret anything I said to him. He became used to it eventually, and stopped trying. We pretty much became invisible to each other. I wasn't even going to make excuses for him.

I can say though that I've been getting better. I know that everything happens for a reason, so I can't really be mad. Theresa says that if I keep up my behavior I can be released as easy as two weeks, and Adams release is the day right before mine. Maybe then we can finally start over, somewhere in a better place.

While I tried cramming all of these thoughts in my head, I accidentally bumped into someone.

"Sorry," I muttered before looking up at him. When I saw his face, I immediately cursed under my breath.

He looked at me for a split second, and that's when I saw it. His eyes were bloodshot red and literally held no emotion, leaving me to wonder what he was thinking about. He opened his mouth to speak, but then shook his head and kept walking.

I mentally face palmed myself and walked back to my room. My original plans were to go to Theresa, but even she wouldn't understand how I felt. I was so confused. The dumb side of me figured that he was the one holding back my happiness. But the look in his face said it all. The day I walked away from him took away all of his.

I tried to resume my regular plans for the day, but I couldn't get his face off of my mind. I mean, I've always been thinking of him ever since this 'break' but the look in his eyes just made me feel...guilty.

I finally decided to just have a girl talk with Ariane. She was the only person I felt who could really understand my situation.

I went to her room and as if on cue, the nurse came with our daily pills. I only had one while Ariane had two due to the fact that I've been making more progress. I plopped on her bed and she smirked at me.

"Adam?"

"Adam" I sighed. I explained to her every single detail of what happened even though it wasn't necessary. It just felt good to let all of it out to someone that's at least your age.

"Tori, I love you like a sister, but please know that you sound like the dumbest fuck on this planet."

My mouth was agape. This bitch lucky I love her.

"Half of the teenage boys these days have a higher ego than their IQ. Adam is a mature man for his age who's just having a hard time learning how to treat a woman right."

"Are you really making excuses for him right now?" I asked, letting out a humorless chuckle.

"No, I'm just saying that you both belong to each other. You always used to tell me how you waited for him to notice how you were hurting. He's probably hurting now. If you know you love him, he's going to have to wait for you. You just need to figure out how long you'll haunt his past and still want him to wait. Life doesn't wait for no one honey."

I gave her a half smile, really trying not to show any fear. I hated when the word love got tossed around like nothing, but for fucks sake I did miss my asshole. The way he puts his beanie up on purpose to act like he's wearing Dr. Seuss' hat. The way he has that twinkle in his eye that lights up when he sees something beautiful. The way he shows off his cute small little man bun after desperately trying for hours.