Faded cries | minsung

🥀days feel like years🥀

They sat themselves on the couch and took the remote to watch a movie, anything that came up was good so they just chose a random one.

"Can I ask something?" Minho shot while the movie played.

"Sure"

"What was the relationship between you and Felix...?" He put his arm behind Jisung and kept his stare on the television nervously, waiting for an answer.

"We we're friends..."

"That's it?"

"Yeah, we met up and got along great so we kept seing each other out of school. Why the sudden question?"

"Are you sure you were nothing more...?"

"We we're just friends."

"Then can you tell me something...?"

"Go ahead"

"Was Felix...interested in guys?"

Jisung sat there blankly and thoughts spined in his head. He didn't know how to answer that.

"It's not my place to say it..."

"Trust me, I'd ask him but I don't feel like going treasure hunting in a cemetery-"

"Fine. He...he likes guys, it's part of the reason we got along so well"

"Oh?" Minho raised a brow but Jisung quickly panicked.

"N-not like that! We never liked each other or anything, it was just nice to have someone...similar to me...I guess" Jisung was anxiously fidgeting around and bitting his nails, not even wanting to at his face. This was America. Not a lot of people were for gay rights, so he just assumed the worst for this.

"I knew it! I called it even when Felix was a kid" Minho chuckled, looking at their family photo that was hung on a wall and smiled widely.

"He'd never admit it to me, but I always knew. I just wish I could go back and tell him that I don't care what he loves..."

"S-So you don't mind that I'm...?"

"Of course not, just to be sure, do you know your pronouns?"

Jisung was about to tear up, he's never had this quick of a positive reaction before, especially not from a kid his age.

"He/him, but I go by what ever. d-do you have any?"

"He/him as well, I'm glad you told me" he laid a hand on his knees and that was the last straw for jisung and he started crying heavily. Minho was shocked, he was doing the bare minimum and it was getting him this emotional. Everyone should be doing this, but it was so badly viewed that this was exceptional.

"I wish more people could react like you do...but not a lot of people understand that I don't want to be like this. I've got parents that will never even try and get how much it hurts when they ask where my girlfriend is, I don't want to have one. I wish I could but I'm attracted to something I shouldn't"

"Never feel like your feelings aren't valid. Jisung it doesn't matter who you fall for...come here" he pulled the boy on his chest and laid on his back, Jisung sobbing uncontrollably on his stomach and chest, trying to let his body relax but he couldn't.

"If it makes you feel any better, I searched for years to find what I like. I was so confused because I really liked both, I didn't know that was normal...I don't care about gender, it's irrelevant to me...after some needed research I think I'm Pan"

"R-really?"

"Yeah, you're not as alone as you think you are, i could name your a bunch of people at our school that are the same as us"