My Soldier - Missing Home

I Think I'm In Love..

A/N ~~ HEY! Just want to say an incredibly huge Thank You to everyone who sent me messages and commented to check on me and wish me well.. Mental Health is something I have dealt with since I was young but when it's bad, it's bad. But, I'm feeling a lot better and catching up on my writing so all is well.

Bit of an emotional one today.. So get your tissues ready!

Hope your all doing okay and have the best day! :D


17th October, 2018

~~Day 12, Nepal~~

Normal POV

Another day and still no sign of the transport up to the Hospital. Thankfully, we have been able to keep everyone alive and as comfortable as we can with what we have access to here. I informed Dr Karr that 7 Section are working with the local uniformed services to try and get the roads clear, which seemed to give him the same boost it gave me knowing they will do everything they can get the roads as clear as possible. It gave us the encouragement to keep everyone going as we did our usual morning rounds in almost perfect sync. Eventually, I got to my favourite little patient who has only been getting better since I changed her medication. As soon as she spots me, her smile grows from where she is now sitting up in the bed. Her Dad following her eyeline and smiles just as much as he sees me walking over. "Good morning Sunshine." I greet Naya and instantly her beaming smile rubs off on me and my cheeks are hurting. "Hi Captain Harley!" She greets adorably, ever since Natalia explained that I am a Captain in the Army she thinks it's great calling me that. "How's my favourite patient today?" I ask and she wiggles excitedly and instantly I start to laugh at her being able to move more today. "That's great Naya! Can I check your temperature?" She nods and turns her head ready for me using the thermometer and my smile grows impossibly bigger seeing her temperature back to what is should be. I do my usual checks with her and then check her stitches, happy with everything I see. "Everything looks amazing Sunshine." She beams up at me before yawning cutely. "Get some sleep Naya. I'll come back later okay?" She nods and turns onto her side to get some sleep as her Dad smiles up at me before getting some sleep himself.

I move over to the women who has been struggling since yesterday with her breathing. Dr Karr believes she has some fluid on her lungs which is causing her the distress. She is one of the patients who desperately needs a hospital. I check her vitals and charts before giving her more medication and leaving her to rest. Once I am done with my rounds, I walk over to check on Natalia. I get to her and she is currently treating a little boy with a nasty cut on his shoulder. I watch closely as she soothes him with just talking as she cleans and dresses the cut. I smile softly, impressed with her work as she gives him a sweet before catching my gaze as she changes her gloves and walks over to where I am stood. "Great work Jones." I compliment as we walk over to get a bottle of water. "Thank you Lane. How's little Naya?" She asks as I hand her a fresh bottle. "She's doing amazing. But I still want her checked over at a hospital before she goes home." Natalia nods her head in agreement as we take a moment to have a drink and look around the now calmer room. "Do you think the transport will get here soon?" I sigh as I put the lid back on my bottle of water and lean back against the wall. "I hope so. Some of these patients are already struggling.." She hums in agreement as she leans back beside me and we take a small breather together. "Thank you for all your help Lane. I feel like I've learnt so much already being here compared to what I have learnt at home.." I smile at the comment and turn to see her looking around the room as we talk. "You've done an amazing job here Natalia. You should be proud of yourself, truely." We take a moment to just take in everything around us before I hear someone shouting my name across the room..

"HARLEY! I NEED SOME HELP OVER HERE!" Dr Karr yells over in panic so I quickly run over to see what is happening. As soon as I see what is infront of him, my eyes widen seeing the women lying on the bed who has just been brought in. "What happened?" I ask the man who is standing behind Dr Karr as I try and assess her injuries. "Our house, she was trapped inside.." I nod as I start to press around where the plank of wood has impaled her abdomen as Dr Karr sets up an IV line. "How long was she trapped?" I ask as I continue my checks as Natalia checks the women's air ways. "A long time.." He manages to tell me, not being confident in his English. "Breathing is shallow and pulse is weak." Natalia tells me and instantly I know we are dealing with some sort of internal bleeding. I move up to check to see if anything is blocking her airway but nothing is clear so I begin to check her lungs and quickly notice something which is not good at all. "Her lung has collapsed. She needs a hospital..." I don't get chance to finish my sentence as I see her chest fall alarming low. I rush to check her pulse and I can't find one. "Fuck! I can't find a pulse!" I yell out and Natalia quickly moves to start compressions as Dr Karr brings a bag to help her breathe again. I listen as Natalia counts out her compressions and then I do some manual breathing before checking for a pulse again. "Nothing, keep going, Dr Karr adrenaline!" I yell out and everyone listens as Dr Karr comes back with the medication. He administers the liquid in her arm before I take over the compressions for what feels like hours..

"Natalia, check for a pulse." I say and she quickly checks the women's neck but her face tells me everything. "Nothing.." I stop the compressions and step back to catch my breathe. The man stands in shock as I take off my gloves and turn to wash my hands, seeing Dr Karr already appraoching the Man since he can speak the language better than I can to comfort him. I dry my hands as Natalia comes to wash hers, a familiar daunting expression on her face. "You alright?" I check, not wanting this to affect her. "Yeah.. I Um.. Yeah." She replies with glossy eyes and shaky breathes. Going through something like that hits everyone differently, but it always leaves something behind. "Natalia. Talk to me." I urge, seeing her getting into her head. "It just happened so fast.." I nod and hand her something to dry her hands with as the volunteers take care of the women, moving her out to the temporary morgue behind the building. "It does. But we did everything we could, she wouldn't have a chance without a hospital. She must have trapped for hours, even days." I explain and see her shoulders deflate a little as she takes everything in. "Your right.." I nod and put a comforting hand on her shoulder. "Don't let this discourage you at all. These things happens, especially in these types of situations. We just have to keep going, remembering why we are here." And just as I finish my sentence, I hear some vehicles arriving outside and instantly I feel a wave of relief as I look over and see a transport truck pulling up outside. "Is that..?" Natalia begins with a small smile pulling at her lips. "Yep. Come on, let's go see what we have." She nods happily and we head outside to count how much room we have to play with.

"Okay so we have room for everyone who needs a hospital Dr Karr." I deliver the news we have all been waiting on and instantly Dr Karr smiles and pats my shoulder. "Amazing news Harley. Let's get these people out of here." I nod confidently and turn to Natalia. "Your with me Jones, come on." She nods and follows my lead as we begin to get people ready for moving as paramedics file in with beds and wheel chairs to get people into the trucks and ambulances. We help where we can before we come to my favourite little ray of sunshine, who is already smiling as we reach her. "Hello Sunshine, are you ready for your trip to the hospital so you can go home?" Her smile grows up to her eyes as she nods excitedly. "You be good for those doctors okay?" I say playfully and she giggles loudly as I make sure her charts are up to date and she has everything she needs before Natalia pulls a chair over to us. "Come on then Sunshine, on three." I count to three and lift her into the chair carefully, making sure she is comfortable before Natalia wraps her in a blanket as I turn back to see her Dad with the biggest smile on his face. "Thank you for saving my daughter Harley." I smile and shake his out-stretched hand. "It was my pleasure Amar." He beams as we all follow the paramedic outside who is pushing Naya towards the transport truck. I kneel down infront of her as they get her seat ready inside the truck. "Make sure you get better and stay safe for me okay little one?" I smile as she nods and leans forward with her arms open for me. I lean in and cuddle her carefully before pulling back to see her bright green eyes staring back at me. "Thank you Captain Harley." I nod and smile one last time before watching her go. My smile never faltering seeing her leaving happy and healthy. Those green eyes enough to make anyone smile..

Green eyes..

What is it about girls with green eyes stealing my heart..


~~Thursday Afternoon, L.A.~~

Lizzie POV

Ever since speaking to Harley my smile has yet to disappear. It was so good to hear her voice after two weeks of only getting a few texts from her. Hearing how tired she was made my heart break but the more we spoke, the better she sounded so knowing I can have that effect on her is enough to get me to the next time we get to speak. Knowing she is safe and sound is also a huge relief. I got my meetings and phone calls done as soon as I could today, knowing I have plans with Mom, Ashley and MK for dinner soon. As soon as I was done for the day, I got changed and left for the drive to Mom's house. It's been so long since I seen Mom I can't wait to get there. I know I am going to get grilled about Harley but I don't care. I could talk about her all day and still never get bored. The drive to Mom's is slow with the traffic in L.A but eventually I park outside and take a moment to myself before getting out the car and walk up to her front door. As soon as I ring the bell, I hear a rush of footsteps before I am engulfed in a huge hug. I return Mom's hug easily before she pretty much drags me inside and into the living room, stopping me at arms length to look me up and down with a huge smile growing across her face. "What is it Mom?" I ask, not being able to read her expression. "You just look, different." She comments, confusing me even more as she pulls me into another hug. I wrap my arms back around her and hear her sniffle slightly before she pulls away and leaves a kiss on my head. "Different how?" I ask confused and she just shakes her head with a smile. "Just, different. Happy. Genuinely happy." I can't help but smile even wider at her words, since the last time she seen me was before I left for London and she knew I wasn't happy then, but now I am.

We move to the kitchen as Mom carries on cooking as I sit at the table and watch with a glass of wine. We catch up on what I have missed being in London before she asks me about work. I tell her about filming before I hear the door bell. "Can you go get that sweetie?" I nod and tell Mom yes as I leave my glass and go answer the door. As soon as I open the door, I am tackled into a twin hug as MK and Ashley wrap me into their arms. I do my best to hug them back before seeing their huge smiles looking up at me slightly. "Hey Sis!" They say in unison making me laugh as I kiss both their heads. "Hey you two." I greet back before pulling them inside as they rush to the kitchen to greet Mom. I follow them in and sit back at the table as they all catch up and get a drink each before the twins join me at the table. "You are looking amazing Liz!" Ashley comments making me blush slightly behind my wine glass. "Yeah Ash is right, your looking even better than when we seen you in London." I smile and thank them both as Mom turns to watch us all at the table before smirking slightly as she looks right at me. "Could this glow around you be because of your new beau by any chance?" She teases and instantly the twins giggle between them as I try and hide the growing redness across my cheeks. Well, that didn't take long. I clear my throat, taking a sip of my drink to try and compose myself before looking at all the eyes on me which doesn't help at all. "Maybe.." I comment back making Mom scoff as she waves her hand towel at me. "Stop being so coy, I want to hear all about her!" She warns playfully making me laugh as the twins giggle across the table.

"Where do you want me to start?" I ask teasingly making the twins scoff now. "At the start obviously." Mom comments as she finally sits with us at the table with a glass in her hand. Okay this is happening.. "Well, it was about 2 months after I got to London and I was concentrating on work to try and forget everything that happened here in L.A. Then Scarlett called to remind me about a party at Tom's that night. I was so tired but she gave me no choice so I got ready and met her there. At some point in the night I started to feel a little overwhelmed so I went outside to get some air and nearly fell down the steps I didn't see down infront of me. Luckily, someone stopped me and when I looked down, there she was." I explain and see everyone very invested in my story so I took a sip of wine and carried on. "Her accent was amazing and as soon as she asked me to join her, I sat beside her and caught a glimpse of her deep Hazel eyes looking back at me. We talked and she seemed to calm me down without even trying. She told me she just got back from Iraq a week ago and was only there because Tom told her she had to come and have fun. She was so easy to talk too and I felt drawn to her somehow. And what surprised me most was she knew exactly who I was but didn't make a huge deal out of it unlike everyone else I meet." I see the twins beaming smiles, considering they already love Harley after meeting her just the once as Mom is completely invested in my words. I go on to tell them about the rest of the night and how she gave me her jacket, which I still have even now and they all coo at the cuteness I am gushing about.

"So, you asked for her number right?" MK checks and I nod my head. "I did. I don't know where my courage or confidence came from but I had to see her again." Mom smiles proudly at my words before I continue. "The next morning we arranged to meet for coffee the following day since she was spending the day with Tom and yeah.." I stop but Mom just looks at me with a raised eyebrow. "Carry on, I wasn't kidding, I want to know everything!" I can't help but laugh as I shift in my seat to get comfortable before carrying on my story. "Okay I picked out a small coffee shop so I wouldn't be seen and got there early so I waited for a few minutes before seeing her carrying a bunch of flowers for me." Mom pretty much melts at Harley as I tell her about our coffee date and how Harley ordered a huge platter of treats for us and wouldn't let me pay for anything. I tell them we got to know each other before I had to leave but we made arrangements to meet up again before telling them all about our lunch date we went on a couple of days later. Mom gets a little upset when I tell her about my panic attack but as soon I tell her Harley took care of me the way she did, her smile grows up to her eyes hearing how sweet and caring she was that day. Mom jumps up to check on the food after I tell her about how amazing Harley was taking me home after my melt down before she rushes back to hear more. I went on to tell them about her surprise day out at the Zoo she planned for me all last minute and they all love every little detail I am telling them. Everything from Harley's sweet talking to her holding my hand to calm my nerves being near the crowds that day.

I show them the pictures I took that day in the Zoo and Mom wants all of them printed already which makes my heart flutter at how much she is smiling as she looks at all the pictures again. "She is very good looking Liz.." Mom comments and instantly my cheeks burn up as the twins burst into loud laughter. "What? She is! No wonder you wanted to see her again.." Mom adds and I laugh nervously as she hands me my phone back. "Stop it Mom.." I whine and she just laughs as the Twins do the same. "As you were saying Sis..." MK teases and I try and compose myself before telling them about Harley taking me home and my brave kiss on her cheek. They all gasp and tease me before I tell them about our first little arguement which Mom instantly scolds me for. She knows how bad I am at reading into things and overthinking everything so I expected it from her. I tell them about Harley having to go to work before we get to see each other again but then gush at our little unexpected weekend we ended up spending together. "That's when you kissed for the first time right?" Ashley teases and Mom coos over at me as I tell them about how amazing Harley was that night when she cooked and we danced together. They are all in awe as I spend so much time just gushing over Harley as I go through our journey together. I cover our time apart before telling them about our first official date and then everything after that. We sat and ate as I carried on telling them everything I could remember before we all moved into the living room to get comfortable as I tell them about Harley asking me to be her girlfriend.

"Well, I cannot wait to meet her Lizzie. You sound so happy and you look even happier." Mom comments making me smile as the twins nod in agreement. "Thanks Mom, I am really happy. She makes me feel like I can do anything.." I explain and I see Mom welling up at my words. "Well we love her already and even more now hearing all that!" Ashley comments and MK agrees easily. I finally get a break as the Twins talk about work so I can sit back on the sofa and listen to them for a while until we decide to put a movie on to watch together. I pull a blanket over myself as I get comfortable curled up as we watch the rest of the movie in comfortable silence. When it finishes, the Twins decide to go to bed since they have work early in the morning so we say goodnight before Mom re-fills our glasses and we go out into the back yard with some blankets since it is a really nice night and all our serious talks happen out here so I know she wants to know more about how I am really doing. We get comfortable in the outdoor chairs before Mom turns to me with a serious look on her face. "Forgive me for asking Liz but how do you feel now that your getting past what happened with Robbie? I know how much he hurt you and I don't want you hiding that from anyone." I nod and shift a little uncomfortably before getting my words out. "I've talked to Harley about everything.. More than I thought I would ever tell her this soon. She is so understanding and comforting, it's hard not to open up to her. She helps me everyday to get over how he made me feel about myself and my body. I never thought I would trust someone again but I trust Harley more than I ever trusted him.." I see Mom's small grin appear as she listens intently to my words.

We talk a little more about the whole 'Robbie' thing before I see Mom wanting to ask something but she hesitates a few times. I sit and wait before she finally comes out with what she wants to ask me. "Do you love Harley?" I feel my breathe hitch in my throat at Mom's unexpected question but instantly I look up into her eyes, already knowing my answer. It's something I have not stopped thinking about since the day Harley left. "I do Mom.. I've fallen hard for her." I finally say it out loud and it feels amazing to tell someone I trust. "You seem so happy Liz. I've not seen you like this about anyone before now." Mom grins excitedly making my smile grow along with her. "She's just so different to anyone I have ever met. And she sees me for Lizzie and not Elizabeth Olsen, the celebrity actress." I ramble a little but Mom nods her head in agreement, understanding exactly what I mean straight away. "I'm so happy for you sweetie. I can't wait to meet her in person." I get excited at the thought of them meeting one day, knowing my Mom is going to love Harley so much. "Thank Mom. I can't wait to bring her here to meet you." We fall into a small silence as we drink our wine before a lingering thought comes to my mind which has been bugging me for a little while now and there is no one better to talk to about it than Mom. I take a deep breathe before voicing my worry towards her, hoping she can help me with it.

"I'm worried about Dad's reaction.." I say softly and instantly Mom turns to see that I am genuinely worried. "Don't be. If your happy, he should respect that and be happy for you. If not, I'll have words." She says playfully making me giggle at her. "I just, I know how he is with these types of things." I add and she nods in understanding. "I know sweetie but anyone can see how happy Harley makes you so he will see that too. It might take him some getting used too but eventually, he will accept it. Try not to worry about it and just enjoy being with Harley." I smile again, knowing she is always right about these things before she asks to see any other pictures I have of me and Harley. I quickly move to sit beside her, getting my phone to show her the pictures from Newcastle and Cornwall, as well as any other pictures I have taken sneakily. I instantly try and skip past the photo I took of Harley in just her sports bra and shorts but Mom quickly giggles to herself as I fumble to move to the next picture. "She's in amazing shape Liz.." She whispers making my cheeks blush as I nod in agreement. "She really is." I whisper but Mom laughs obviously hearing me before we look over the last of the pictures. After we finish, Mom yawns and decides she is heading to bed. "I'll see you in the morning, don't stay out here too long. I know you miss her but you need to sleep and take care of yourself." I nod and hug her goodnight before she goes up to bed as I settle back in the chair with my blanket to finish my wine and look over the pictures on my phone again, smiling at every one that Harley is in. Her smile and bright eyes staring back at me on my screen is just what I need right now.

I really do love her..

I find myself lost in my thoughts as I look through our pictures together. Going right back to our day at the Zoo when she was posing inside the Aquarium to make me laugh. So much has changed since that day. I never thought I could fall so hard so quick but looking back at these pictures, seeing the way she looked at me and how genuine my smile is, maybe I have loved her since day one and I just didn't know it then. She has never failed to make me laugh, no matter how I am feeling she can instantly put a smile on my face. The way she has always cared for me, the first time we met she stopped me from spiralling into a panic attack. She came into my life when I thought I could never trust anyone again and here I am, letting down all my walls for her. I find myself staring at the pictures from Newcastle, seeing the cut on her eyebrow. Giggling to myself thinking how it has actually left a small scar behind and how she said it will be a constant reminder of our first weekend away together which is so fucking cute. I love how soft and sweet she is with me but in reality, she is one of the strongest people I have ever met. Everything she as been through, then being an Army Medic. She's incredible. But yet, the parts I love most abut her are when she is vulnerable and open with me. When she comes to me for comfort after a nightmare or she just wants me to read to her or run my fingers through her hair to calm her down. Those small moments between just us, I treasure more than anything. I check the time and see it's nearly midnight.. I wonder if she will have her phone with her today? I really want to hear her voice..

And without stopping to think about it, I open her contact details and call her. Hoping she answers. It take a few rings but eventually, her soft, soothing voice fills my head as she answers the phone to me.

Harley - "Hey baby.."

Lizzie - "Hi Soldier..

Harley - "Is everything okay? You sound upset.."

Lizzie - "I just, I miss you so much Harley.. I've been telling Mom about our time together in London and it brought back all these memories and feelings and I just want a cuddle from you to make me feel better.."

Harley - "Aw baby I miss you too. I wish I could be there to cuddle you, I really do, more than anything."

Lizzie - "I'm sorry for unloading on you like this but your the only person that can calm me down and I.. I just needed you."

Harley - "Hey never apologise for wanting to talk to me Lizzie. I've always told you I want you to come to me when you need me and I mean it. I want to be your safe place, no matter where I am in the World."

Lizzie - "I wish I could see you, I feel like you are so far away.."

Harley - "Where are you right now?"

Lizzie - "In my Mom's back yard... Why?"

"Look up and tell me what you see." I sit back in the garden chair, looking up at the clear night sky above me completely confused at why Harley is asking me to do this. Maybe she is over-tired and delusional? I hope not but it's possible. I tell her exactly what I see as I watch the stars twinkle above me. "The night sky, the Moon and the stars.." I say very unsure what she is going to say but she just chuckles lightly at my confused tone before giving me some more instructions to follow. "Alright, keep watching the Moon for me.." I nod to myself as I shift my eyes to the bright, almost full moon shinning down on me as I listen to her gentle voice in my ear. "Because that Moon you are looking at right, now is the same Moon I look at every night when I sit outside and calm down from my days here. So from now on, when you start to feel this way at night, I want you to go and look for the Moon. That way, you will remember that I am looking at the same Moon you are. That's how close I still am too you, I'm never far away from you Lizzie. I promise you." I am completely speechless at her words. She is an actual poet I swear. Her words always hold so much meaning behind them and as I am staring up at the moon, replaying her words in my head, I feel some tears rolling down my cheeks as I smile softly thinking about what she said. "You truly are amazing Soldier.." I practically whisper in reply as my eyes are glued to the Moon in the sky now. "Only for you baby.." She tells me confidently making me giggle lightly as we just take a moment before her voice breaks me from my small trance.

"Now, I have to get back to work. But I will be thinking about you as you dream about me." My smile fades hearing she has to go but then I quickly remember it is during the day where she is and she will most likely be at the medical centre. I clear my throat, hoping my voice doesn't give away my tears as I reply quietly. "I will always dream about you Harley.." I can hear her smiling down the phone at my words, which makes me smile thinking about her smile. "Sweet dreams baby." She says in a gentle tone, soothing me again as I let my smile grow. "Stay safe My Soldier." I tell her sternly and she laughs a little at my sudden change. "Always My Girl.." She hangs up and I lower my phone down from my ear, a tear falling onto the screen before I look back up at the bright Moon in the sky. My free hand unconsciously reaching up for my necklace as I gently hold onto the emerald green pendant. My thoughts swirling as I think about nothing but Harley. Her words on repeat in my head, finding the comfort I need right now. Admitting my true feelings for Harley tonight had only made me regret even more not telling her before she left. I want her to know how I feel, even if she doesn't feel the same way just yet. And her being away like this has made me realise just how much she means to me and cemented those feelings. I don't want my doubts and fears to get in the way of what we have. She deserves to know but not until I can tell her face to face. I want a future with her, I want everything. I've never been more sure of anything.. Harley Lane is my future. And I don't want to wait around and take things slow anymore. Why wait when I know she is everything I need and more. I just hope she feels the same way as I do..


~~Day 13, Nepal~~

Normal POV

I come off the phone to Lizzie and my heart is breaking thinking about how upset she is. I didn't even mean to bring my phone with me today, I accidently left it out my locker so I just brought it with me since the guys were waiting outside to head to the medical centre this morning. I'm glad I did now, I would have hated it if Lizzie hadn't been able to reach me when she is feeling so vulnerable. And now my food is my last thought as I feel my chest tightening, thinking about all the emotions I have been neglecting. The thoughts of missing home I have been pushing to the back of my mind, the thoughts of missing Lizzie that have been sneaking up on me when I least expect it. What I would give to just have her in my arms, just for a moment. To be able to hold her close. I never thought I would feel this way so soon but I can't deny it. Fuck these next 10 weeks are going to be hard. I fall deep into my thoughts as I replay Lizzie's voice in my head before feeling someone come to join me where I am sitting out the back of the medical centre. I slowly open my eyes and look to my right, seeing Natalia's small smile looking back at me as she hands me a bottle of water. "Thanks." I say quietly as I open it and take a drink as she does the same with her own bottle before a small silence falls between us. I'm glad Natalia has been able to fit in with us all as well has she has. I was a little hesitent at first when I met her, considering the last Brunette Medic that I had with me ended up in a relationship. But Natalia has deffinently surprised me, she's dedicated to her job and I admire that. And she is easy to get on with, which was a big relief.

"You okay Lane?" Her gentle voice snaps me from my daze as I look over and see her searching my features. "Yeah.. I uh. I just got an unexpected phone call that's all.." I try to explain as we both look down to the floor infront of us. "Someone special?" She asks genuinely and I smile softly. "Girlfriend.." I reply easily and she looks over but I keep my eyes trained on the dusty floor under my boots. "Ah, very special then." She says sweetly making me chuckle lightly as I nod my head. "Yeah.." I whisper as my thoughts go to Lizzie again. "Is she okay?" Natalia asks genuinely but that familiar pull in my chest makes my smile fade. "She will be, she's been to see her Mam and talked about us with her for the first time. Got her all emotional so she called.." I ramble a little as I find something interesting to stare at on my boot laces. "How long you been together?" I'm a little surprised at her question as I lift my head and think about my answer. Knowing it's a little complicated. "Um, not long officially. We only met 6 Months ago and we were dating for most of that." I try and explain as I look towards her as Natalia looks back at me. "That look in your eye, your in love aren't you?" She calls me out too easily but my mouth runs away from my brain and without having to think about my answer, I say it. "Without a doubt.." I smile instantly as Natalia grins at my answer. We both laugh lightly as we look away again and back at the street infront of us. "That's cute Lane. No hesitation. Do you think she feels the same way?" I chuckle a little nervously and shrug my shoulders. "I hope so, but it's still a little complicated.." Natalia laughs at my attempt at an answer, understanding there is so much more to what I have just said.

"Well, when we have the time, I'd love to hear all about it. If you want too that is.." She backtracks slightly making me laugh before turning my full attention towards her. "One thing about our job Natalia, you form bonds very quickly and trust comes naturally when your life is on the line. So I don't doubt we will know everything about each other before we go home in 3 months.." I tell her truthfully and she seems to understand what I mean as she nods and smiles softly. "Well, I can't wait. As much as the guys are great, getting to know them is easy where as I feel like there is a lot more to you." I nod and smile at her words, knowing she is right but not wanting to admit to it all since I don't open up completely with everyone. "Football and girls.. That's all they talk about." I joke making us both laugh before a more serious tone of voice comes with her next words. "I'm glad I got this opportunity Harley, you and 7 Section are an amazing group of people. I feel very lucky to be with you all." I put my hand on her back, rubbing up and down in a comforting way as I see her letting her emotions shine through a little as her eyes gloss over. "We're lucky to have you Natalia. Your going to make an amazing medic." I soothe her and she quickly wipes away her tears before we fall into a comfortable silence, eating our food before getting back to work.

As much as you are told emotions on this job get you killed, sometimes you need to take a moment to feel everything so it doesn't end up consuming you. And if you have someone there to make sure your okay, take the chance and let your emotions out. Or they end up breaking you down from the inside out..