My Soldier - Missing Home

Mother

A/N ~~ Okay so, I don't usually do specific Trigger Warnings for every Chapter but I feel like this one in particular needs one. There will be talk of mental and physical abuse in this Chapter, as well as negative thoughts and struggles with Mental Health. So if any of that is something you don't want to read, or are not sure about reading, it is not a huge part of the Story. This Chapter is a more in-depth look on the relationship Harley had with her Mother. So if you do not read this Chapter, you are not missing something that is hugely important to the overall Story Line.

~~ There is not a huge amount of detail, but please just be careful if you do decide to read it and have possible Triggers.. 


~~ This is a personal struggle I deal with on a daily basis, as I know a lot of people do, and I wanted to remind everyone who reads my Story that if you ever need anyone to talk too. My messages are always open. Your never alone.


~~ Also a quick but massive thank you to everyone for the well wishes! I'm on the mend but very slowly but this Chapter is another longer one to make up for it :)



~~Early Sunday Morning, London~~

Normal POV

I'm back there. Back in Newcastle. Back at my childhood home. Which means one thing..

"HARLEY!" I hear her scream from the next room, instantly sending a cold shiver down my spine. I'm sitting in the living room working on some School work, music playing as I have my books and papers laying on the floor in front of me. As soon as I hear her voice, I know what is coming my way. My whole body is now completely tense before I hear the door slam shut behind her, causing me to flinch slightly where I am still sitting on the floor. I just keep my eyes focused on the books in front of me, hoping if she sees me busy with School work, she might leave me alone. But my plan fails miserably as I hear her thumping foot prints getting closer as she enters the room behind me. "Don't ignore me Harley!" She shouts from a few feet away, my body screaming at me to run away but for some reason, I am frozen. My voice fails me as I hear her take a step closer to where I am, her body not in my view yet. "What's wrong? Used all your energy fucking that dyke before coming home!?" My body cringes at her choice of words, telling me someone has seen me today with Robyn. We've been friends for a while now, but lately we have been getting a lot closer. I knew being with her after School today would be risky, but I enjoy her company more than anything. So after Robyn stayed to watch my rugby practice today, we decided on walking home together. I walked her home, and without thinking we shared a kiss before I left her to continue my walk home, as well as holding her hand on our walk. I hate hiding who I am, from anyone. But the one person I did not want to see us or find out about what we do together is the woman I call my Mother..

"No." I answer simply, not wanting to make her any more irate than she clearly already is. My voice comes out quiet and not confident at all. I hate the effect she has on me, but between her and Steven, they have both knocked me down to rock bottom. At this point, I have no fight left. "No? So you weren't with a girl after School?" She asks, obviously already knowing the answer but wanting to hear it from me to give her reason for her anger. "I was.." I answer weakly, my eyes trained on my books, not wanting to see her like this. "Who is she?" She questions with a familiar harshness to her voice. My entire body tensed to the point my knuckles are turning white and my jaw is aching. My mind spiralling not knowing what to say for the best. "A friend." I decide to reply, hoping it puts a stop to this but as soon as her feet come into view out of the corner of my eye, I know her body is towering over mine ready to pounce at the first chance she gets. "So you fuck with all your friends, is that it?" She snaps causing me to flinch slightly where I am sitting. "No." I answer again simply as I catch her step closer. "No? What do you mean NO!? You were seen kissing her Harley! Where have you been since School ended? In the school changing rooms or out in a field somewhere?" She raises her voice, but since it is just us in the house, no one knows what is about to happen. Feeling thankful in a way that she only chooses to do this away from everyone, including Maisie. I would hate her to see or hear any of this. "I was at Rugby.." I pretty much whisper but it is quickly met by a loud scoff and an evil laugh in reply. "Yeah of course you were. I'd love to know why it was me who was punished by giving life to a Dyke for a daughter. Why me huh? Why did you have to be born like this!? WHY HARLEY! TELL ME!"