my chest hurts because of some unknown pain
my hands are shaking as i hide them in my lap.
my stomach makes me look like a fat pig
my hair is too greasy and always frizzy.
all the other girls bloom like flower petals
my pains make me wilt like a forgotten weed.
everyone says "niki's so smart, she's in honors."
everyone says, "niki's so kind, she helps me!"
i compete with others to be in honors
i help you because i can't stand your whining.
my father says, "niki's a master manipulator."
my father says, "you don't understand!"
i manipulate because it's the only safety i have
i don't understand why you're not being a dad.
my mother says, "niki is too shy to socialize."
my mother says, "you need to stop hating!"
i've been bullied into silence and shyness
i hate others because they hate me, i hate me.
my breasts pull my entire chest down
my chest is beautiful but it hurts to carry.
my smile shows my ugly cheeks
my eyes show my ugly tears.
my thighs can hold two children on them
but my legs do not run, they walk slowly.
all the other girls have small breasts
their chests do not hurt to carry.
their smiles show their pearly teeth
their eyes show their lovely makeup.
their thighs can carry nothing
and their slender legs run miles easily.
if only i was like them
everyone likes them.
if only i was them
and not me.
YOU ARE READING
~𝔼𝕞𝕡𝕒𝕥𝕙𝕪- my poems!~
Thơ caempathy (noun)- the ability to understand and share the feelings of another. these are some of my poems! i'm so glad to share them with you! i hope you enjoy. warning- some of these are more rant/dark poems so do be aware of that before you read. th...
