Lost In Time (Druig)

Chapter 32: There's A Reason You Hide From Them

In a matter of time, I am brought back to reality, as I see the fragments of my past disappear in front of me like dust.

I am yet again met with the red glowing eyes of Arishem, still floating inside his hand in space close to Earth where my real body is right now, but besides that impossibility, I feel lost.

The tears are streaming down on my face, as the different emotions take a toll on me while I stare into Arishem's eyes.

I feel angry, scared, but confused at the same time. It's alot to even comprehend. Did I really live that life back then?

The questions I had are answered, but still not all of them. It's clear I stood even above Ajak as the Supreme Leader of the Eternals, but even when I think about that, it's hard to believe.

Still, it makes me somewhere happy, because I did meet the former Prime Eternal, knowing she was a beautiful yet powerful leader to her Eternals. And right now, I can't talk to her anymore.

Something must have happened after I last saw her a few months ago in South Dakota, when she told me she wanted to stop the Emergence, as she realised what I had done a few centuries ago.

And I don't know who or what caused Ajak's death, but I'm also questioning what exactly happened to me afterwards.

I couldn't even remember me coming to this planet in the first place. Just like the Eternals, I came here 7,000 years ago, where Mesopotamia was the beginning of humankind.

My mission was to observe them from afar as they did their job for the Emergence, not needing to interfere unless necessary. So by that means, even if Arishem created us as synthetic beings, incapable of evolution, we kinda did.

My body doesn't feel the same anymore. I am trembling more than ever because of the reveal of this truth, and I have the feeling I'm about to collapse.

But somewhere inside my mind, I'm accepting all of this, because my present and my old memories before they were gone, are kind of starting to merge together.

What I mean, is that one part of me is still processing everything Arishem made me remember again, like Ancient Greece or my last talk with Ajak. And another part is stuck on the truth of my mission; my old me. I now know again why I came to this planet, and where it went wrong.

I remember I fell in love with Druig in Babylon already, even if I thought I was never able to meet him and have a proper life with him.

I remember me creating Mahd Wy'ry inside Thena's mind to stop the Emergence, as the humans changed my perspective, and I remember most of the times living amongst humans, while I kept my eye close on the Eternals.

Even with all of the emotions racing through my head right now, processing what I can remember again, I am trying to think about the possible reason why I couldn't remember all of this, and it makes me scared to even be reasonable with Arishem.

I know how strong he is; Arishem is the creator of all life in this universe. He brought back my memories, all of them, and that's why I'm afraid to ask him.

That's why I'm questioning if stopping the Emergence is such a good idea, as he probably already knows about this.

"I'm sorry I let you down Arishem. I know you created me for a purpose, but I failed you." I trembled my words, as the tears are slowly freezing onto my cheeks, looking towards him in fear at the same time.

However, I'm still trying to be strong. I don't know how to really start this conversation with him, by just apologizing, as I made many mistakes.

What I said before, the memories are all starting to merge with my present ones, which makes me wanna be reasonable with him, and also scared. And yes, I really feel that way.