Lost In Time (Druig)

Chapter 17: Acceptable Losses

"You let her out of your sight for once to check up on me, and this is what becomes of her?!" 

The question struck a chord with me as I suddenly start to hear it. It's an angry voice, while I immediately wanted to respond to it, even tho I don't know who's voice it is. However, there is only one person who could respond like that.

Druig.

I recognized his voice right away, even tho my body somehow wanted me to feel the pain first, which made me flinch for a moment. My god, it's everywhere, and it hurts!

I feel like my body is drained, also me not being able to respond to the voice in the room, as well as I am unaware of where I am. I do feel myself laying down on something hard, noticing where are not outside anymore.

It's also because of Druig's voice; I know we're standing inside a cabin, and not facing danger anymore, but I really don't know which one. Well, it's kinda hard when you're eyes are closed. 

But even with me feeling my surroundings, the memories of the fight slowly started to come back to me. I remember we got attacked by a bunch of Deviants in the village, popping out of nowhere, and because of that Thomas unfortunately did not make it, and alot of other villagers got hurt.

My eyes immediately started to form some tears because of these thoughts, as I promised to come back to him but I don't know what happened between the time I was fighting a Deviant and now.

At some point I know I have to let it go, but i feel I can't do this yet. Some things are forever.

That's why I can't let go of the tears yet, as I am becoming more confused about where I am exactly, and why Druig is shouting in the first place, and towards who.

What happened, and what is happening right now?

However, when I feel like my body is drained, I start to notice I don't feel the energy or power anymore like I did before. Even tho I can't see it from this point, I know that my body isn't flickering this color gold anymore, as are my eyes. 

But I do remember what I did to try to protect Thomas, and kill the Deviant in the first place. I guess it was a kind of redemption for me, but I wasn't in any way to save Thomas in the end unfortunately. 

I still blame myself somehow, even tho I probably shouldn't be doing that.

It felt like I had this control over the Deviant with my powers, just like Druig can do to people's mind. It was activated when I had a lifeless body in my arms of a young child, who still had a long life ahead of him, feeling this anger, fear, pain what I probably did channel through my body.

I couldn't comprehend any of it when it happened, but when I did it, it felt like the most normal thing. It was somehow locked inside of me, as it is now free.

And as of right now, as scary as it might be, I'm slowly beginning to understand I am not who I thought I was, even tho I remember living my whole life here in the Amazon. It somehow can't be, because how else would you explain all of this? 

For me, the pieces of the puzzle slowly started to merge together, but not all of them; I know I'm probably an Eternal, even tho it's unbelievable to be even thinking about this fact. 

But does it mean I'm also a AI just like Sersi described all of the Eternals to be? Do I have multiple versions of myself, roaming out there somewhere in space doing the exact same thing as I am doing right now, or is that another story for another time?

I don't know. It's making my head ache when I think about it, and I probably shouldn't be doing that with the problems that already there. 

But, how do I exactly know this, or think it might be that way?