She's Mine

16. The Search

Ryder's POV

As soon as I walk out my front door I immediately turn around and go back inside. It's pouring outside! Today is just the perfect day for looking for Brody. The weather really compliments my mood. I feel like crying as I put on my raincoat. Why did this have to happen? Brody should of never been kidnapped. What did he ever do? Was Brody in something big? Did he do something to deserve this? Just thinking about Brody being in something illegal or dangerous makes me not really want to know why.

I hopped in my car and turned up the radio. Maybe some music will help. It just so happens to be Sad Song by Elena Coats & We The Kings.

"You and I, were like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky"

I look out my window and see Rudy's Arcade. I remeber me and Brody's first date. Before I realize what's happening, I feel a tear slide down my cheek. What happens if we don't find Brody?

" With you, I'm alive. Like all the missing pieces of my heart they finally collide"

As I keep driving, I go past my highschool and rember the day Brody asked me out. What I wouldn't give to go back to that day and not have to worry about where he is. Not having to worry if he is alive or if he is dead.

"So stop time right here in the moonlight, cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes"

I don't know where I'm going. I drove past the dirt road I was going to. I was going to look where they found Brody's car, but I just want to drive right now.

"Without you I feel broke, like I'm half of a whole"

I really miss Brody. I feel really weird when I think about it, though. I mean he's only been gone like two days. We haven't been dating that long either. Maybe like three days, but I do. I really really miss him.

"Without you, I've got no hand to hold"

Why did he have to go missing as soon as we started dating? I mean I wouldn't want him to get kidnapped even if we wern't, but why right when we start dating? Do I have something to do with it?

"Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm"

Do I have something to do with it? I don't think there is anyone out to get me? Even if there was no one knows were dating. We just started dating the word isn't out yet. The only person I told was Turner. Turner. Is he doing this?

"Without you, I'm just a sad song. I'm just a sad song"

Turner wouldn't do this. He's not the type. He's always so sweet and he's my best friend. He knows that I like Brody so he would never do anything to hurt him.

"With you, I fall. It's like I'm leaving all my past in silhouettes up on the wall"

I don't think Brody has anyone out to get him either. He was always the popular guy who everyone likes. He's the type of guy who everyone thinks is perfect. I don't think anyone would do anything to him.

"With you, I'm a beautiful mess. It's like were standing hand and hand with all our fears up on the edge."

I don't like admitting this, but I'm terrified. I'm not really the type of girl to get scared easily, but I am really scared. I'm scared about not finding Brody. I'm scared to think about what he might be going through right now. I'm scared to find out who did this to him. I'm also scared to think about how his mother might be feeling right now. If I barely know him and I feel this bad, imagine the pain his family is going through.

"So stop time right here in the moonlight, cause I don't ever wanna close my eyes"

I'm not really paying attention to where I'm driving I'm just driving around town, but before I know it I'm at the spot that they say they found Brody's car.

"Without you, I feel broke. Like I'm half of a whole"

I don't want to get out yet, so I just sit in the car. I put my head on the edge of the steering wheel and close my eyes.

"Without you, I've got no hand to hold"

What was Brody thinking? He just leaves in like the middle of the night without telling anyone? Why in the name of Chuck would anyone do that? What made him get the sudden urge to go for a late night drive?

"Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm"

What was he doing down this dirt road? Why did he end up in the ditch? Did he get hurt when he crashed? I don't think he got hurt to badly if he got up and walked away.

"Without you, I'm just a sad song."

I turn off the car and get out. I pull my hood up and walk to the side of the ditch. I don't see anything that can help me, but I start to look closer at everything. Maybe I can find something...anything to help me.

There's nothing, absolutely nothing. All the rain washed everything away. If there was anything to help, its gone. That's just perfect. It had to rain today? Everything is just going down hill. I sigh. I feel like crying, if everything is gone how can the police find anything?

I climb back in my car and drive away. Music can't help me this time. I drive home as fast as I can and climb in my bed. I just need to take a nap and maybe get a few minutes away from all this stress.